This Shadow
Navigating the Abyss of Emotions: Decoding 'This Shadow' by Chernobyl the Secret
Lyrics
I'm sinking under pressure thinking I can do this better
I feel overwhelmed and stressed, believing I can improve my situation.
Am I the failure in the end
Questioning if I am ultimately a failure.
Fuck no I'm not
Strongly denying that I am a failure.
All the feelings gone unspoken
There are emotions and thoughts that I have not expressed.
All the trembling and cold nights alone
Reflecting on lonely and difficult nights filled with anxiety.
I was upset with all the bullshit in the end
Expressing frustration with various negative experiences.
Your misstep, Oh, but it's my fault again
Blaming myself for a mistake or misjudgment.
Simple questions you always dodged the answers
Noticing evasion of straightforward answers to simple questions.
If you were a sickness I swear you'd take my fucking life
If you were a destructive force, you would take away my life.
And when we look into each others eyes
Recalling a moment when we made eye contact.
The time you told me you wouldn't leave my side
Remembering a promise of loyalty and companionship.
We grew older and time flew by
Noting the passage of time as we aged.
It's like we never had each other at night
Feeling as if the connection between us never existed.
Letting you define my happiness. Im done with all of this
Rejecting the influence of someone else in defining my happiness.
I'm losing my control
Experiencing a loss of self-control.
I'm losing my foothold
Losing stability or support.
Undone
Feeling undone or unraveled.
I can't wait to spill the blood in your veins
Expressing anticipation of causing harm or seeking revenge.
I can't wait to see the look on your face
Looking forward to seeing a reaction on someone's face.
And when we look into each others eyes
Repeating a previous moment of eye contact.
The time you told you wouldn't leave my side
Recalling a promise of unwavering support.
We grew older and time flew by
Noting the passage of time and aging in the relationship.
Its like we never had each other at night
Feeling as if the connection between us never existed (repeated).
Letting you define my happiness
Rejecting the influence of someone else in defining my happiness (repeated).
Im done with all of this
Concluding a rejection of external influence on happiness.
I'm losing my control
Experiencing a loss of self-control (repeated).
I'm losing my foothold
Losing stability or support (repeated).
Undone
Feeling undone or unraveled (repeated).
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