Not Myself
Navigating Shadows: Chunk Daville's Melancholic Journey
Lyrics
The sadder the time
The more challenging the times, the more appealing the state of being high.
The better the high
Highs during difficult times are preferable.
I can't help it, I tried
Despite attempting, I cannot control or resist the urge.
I guess I stepped right over the line
I may have crossed a limit or boundary unintentionally.
No direction, gettin harder to find
Feeling lost without a clear path or purpose.
My reflections looking less and less like mine
My self-perception is diminishing, becoming less recognizable.
Drink on my coaster, nobody over
Drinking alone, isolated from others.
Me, myself and I and you'll find that were never sober
In the company of myself, intoxicated, and never sober.
I know I deny it
Despite denying it, I am trying to cope.
Im trying thats what I told her
Conveying efforts to someone.
I know that i'm lying
Acknowledging deception, admitting to lying.
She crying saying we over
Resulting in the end of a relationship, causing distress.
It ain't my fault
Claiming innocence or lack of responsibility.
I was taught this would take it away
Implying substance use as a coping mechanism.
You don't call me, damn we used to talk everyday
Communication breakdown, reminiscing about past conversations.
I can't walk I'm trippin, it's numbing the pain
Feeling incapacitated, using substances to numb emotional pain.
No thoughts, lot lost I need them outta my brain
Experiencing a lack of coherent thoughts, seeking relief.
The sadder the time
Reiteration of the relationship between difficult times and seeking a high.
The better the high
The appeal of being high intensifies during challenging moments.
I can't help it, I tried
Despite efforts, unable to resist the pull towards substance use.
I guess I stepped right over the line
Unintentionally crossing a limit or boundary again.
No direction, gettin harder to find
Feeling lost without a clear direction, making it harder to navigate life.
My reflections looking less and less like mine
Self-perception continues to deteriorate, becoming less recognizable.
I'm not myself
Expressing a disconnection from one's usual identity.
I'm in too deep on this shelf
Being deeply immersed in a challenging situation.
Yeah I fell
Experiencing a fall or failure.
And it hurt me oh well
Acknowledging the pain but accepting it as part of the experience.
Get back up from that hell
Recovering from a difficult situation alone.
With no one to tell
Having no one to share the experience with.
It's just me, no one else
Isolation, being alone with one's thoughts and struggles.
When you leave it excels
The situation worsens when someone leaves.
I'm not myself
Reiteration of a disconnection from one's usual identity.
I'm in too deep on this shelf
Deeply entrenched in a challenging situation once again.
Yeah I fell
Experiencing a fall or failure, repeating the cycle.
And it hurt me oh well
Accepting the pain as an inevitable part of the experience.
Get back up from that hell
Recovering from a difficult situation without external support.
With no one to tell
Isolation, having no one to confide in about the experience.
It's just me, no one else
Alone with one's thoughts and struggles after someone leaves.
When you leave it excels
The situation exacerbates when someone departs.
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