Wake Up
Navigating the Abyss: Coleman Lane's Poignant Reflections on Pain and Struggle
Lyrics
I don't wanna wake up, and I don't wanna feel this pain
I resist waking up and experiencing emotional pain.
And I don't wanna hurt nobody, but I don't think that it's gonna change
I don't want to cause harm, but I doubt things will improve.
I don't wanna wake up, and I don't wanna feel this pain
Reiteration of the reluctance to face pain upon waking.
And I don't wanna hurt nobody, but I don't think that it's gonna change
Reiteration of the desire to avoid causing harm with skepticism about change.
Lately I've been on the edge, closer and closer to losing it
Expressing proximity to a breaking point and the struggle not to lose control.
All of these thoughts in my head, finger, trigger, pulling it
Battling intrusive thoughts, contemplating self-harm.
Feeling like nothing on earth can make sense to me, I just don't wanna keep doing this
Feeling disconnected from reality, questioning the purpose of continuing.
Forcing myself out of bed, faking a smile, I feel like this is foolishness
Forcefully starting the day with a fake smile, perceiving it as futile.
This shit is all a facade, why do I feel like I'm living a lie
Questioning the authenticity of life, feeling like living a false existence.
Why do I smile and why do I laugh when I know I'm dying inside
Expressing internal conflict, laughing externally while suffering internally.
Ego is powerful, won't show my pain, it's a battle with pride
Battling ego, hiding pain to maintain pride and a facade of strength.
So don't be surprised when anyone asks, I say that I'm doing fine
Preemptively justifying a facade by stating everything is fine when asked.
My shit's not together and I fall for perfect and I hate the way that I feel
Admitting personal struggles, longing for perfection, and despising current emotions.
Scars that I've had since I could remember, never did heal
Reflecting on enduring emotional scars that never healed.
Feeling like some type of money could make me feel better, but I know it won't
Seeking solace in materialism but acknowledging it won't address deeper issues.
I really don't like anybody, it's funny cause I know I can't be alone
Expressing difficulty connecting with others while recognizing the need for companionship.
I don't wanna wake up, and I don't wanna feel this pain
Repetition of the desire to avoid waking up and facing emotional pain.
And I don't wanna hurt nobody, but I don't think that it's gonna change
Reiterating the reluctance to cause harm, with skepticism about the possibility of change.
I don't wanna wake up, and I don't wanna feel this pain
Continued resistance to facing emotional pain upon waking.
And I don't wanna hurt nobody, but I don't think that it's gonna change
Repeating the desire to avoid causing harm, with doubts about the potential for change.
I don't wanna hurt nobody, but I don't think that it's gonna change
Expressing the desire not to harm anyone, but maintaining skepticism about the possibility of change.
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