Jack
Eternal Shadows: OkayDontFlip's Haunting Journey of Pain and Transformation
Lyrics
On the steps until next week
Being on the steps until the next week, suggesting a sense of waiting or stagnation.
Until they throw me away
Anticipating rejection or abandonment, waiting until someone discards or dismisses the persona.
Cut me open and empty
Metaphorically describing a desire to be emotionally exposed and rid of everything except the pain.
Everything but the pain
Expressing a willingness to endure emotional pain while shedding other aspects of oneself.
Love it when I glow at night
Enjoying the feeling of shining or standing out during the night.
But where my friends in the day
Contrasting the nighttime glow with a lack of support or presence from friends during the day.
They keep running from me
Friends avoiding the persona, possibly due to their intimidating or unsettling nature.
I guess I scare them away
Speculating that the persona's intimidating presence scares people away.
Fucked up and I need another dose
Expressing a need for escapism through substances to cope with internal struggles.
Always starring through me like imma ghost
Feeling unnoticed or overlooked, as if the persona is transparent like a ghost.
Cutting deep in my skin just let it go
Engaging in self-harm as a way to release emotional pain and distress.
All I need is a face and big mouth to get out of this house never go back
Desiring a bold and outspoken personality to escape the current situation and never return.
Last year it was hard to evolve and move on and I would never go back
Reflecting on a difficult past year and expressing a determination to move forward and not look back.
Now I burn from inside with a mask on my face when I don't like to show that
Concealing inner turmoil behind a mask, not wanting to reveal vulnerability or true feelings.
And I cant go away when the tears on your face turn to flames and they burn black
Feeling trapped and unable to escape when confronted with someone else's emotional pain turning destructive.
Its not the first time you left me alone outside
Experiencing a recurring theme of being left alone outside, possibly in emotional isolation.
Its not the first time you told me to come inside
Recalling past instances of being invited inside but facing emotional challenges.
Its not the first time you told me it would be okay
Reassured that everything will be okay, but the persona acknowledges breaking down and embracing decay.
Its the the first time I broke down I like to rot and decay
Experiencing a moment of emotional breakdown and embracing a state of deterioration.
I feel like I'm broken
Expressing a sense of personal brokenness or emotional fragility.
Taking medicine cause I need a potion
Turning to medication as a form of escape or solution for emotional struggles.
Mixing up my emotions
Confusion and turmoil in emotions, suggesting a mixing or blending of conflicting feelings.
Getting cold I was already frozen
Feeling emotionally numb or frozen, possibly due to past experiences.
All I need is a face and big mouth to get out of this house never go back
Repeating the desire for a bold personality to escape, emphasizing the reluctance to return to a difficult situation.
Last year it was hard to evolve and move on and I would never go back
Reflecting on the challenging process of personal evolution in the past year and the determination to avoid regression.
Now I burn from inside with a mask on my face when I don't like to show that
Continuing to hide true emotions behind a mask, avoiding vulnerability.
And I cant go away when the tears on your face turn to flames and they burn black
Feeling unable to escape when faced with the destructive consequences of someone else's emotional pain.
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