old me
Rediscovering My Broken Past: "Old Me" by CowardlyCrow
Lyrics
I'm going back to the way I used to be
I'm returning to my previous self.
Insecure, low self-esteem, and naive
Reverting to a state of insecurity, low self-esteem, and naivety.
I was just a fool for you
Admitting being foolish for someone.
I think I just watched you leave
Realizing the act of watching someone leave.
Sometimes, I wonder if I would've crumbled by your side
Contemplating if staying with the person would have been detrimental.
Would you have lied for me, or would you have left me to dry?
Questioning whether the person would have been truthful or abandoned.
Not wanting to get out of bed, most days
Expressing a lack of motivation to face the day.
I have my pillow holding me, but I pretend it's your embrace
Using a pillow for comfort, pretending it's the person's embrace.
I'm, I'm going back to the old me
Declaring the intention to revert to the old self.
I'm, I'm going back
Repeating the resolve to go back.
To the old me, who's worse than me
Referring to the old self as worse.
To the old me, who's worse than me
Reiteration of the old self's negative aspects.
Staring in the kitchen, trying to figure out why I'm shaking
Feeling unsettled and trying to understand the cause.
Something feels off and I'm lost
Experiencing a sense of loss and confusion.
In the bathroom trying to feel real again
Seeking a return to reality in the bathroom.
But in the mirror all there is, is you
Seeing the person's presence in the mirror.
I'm, I'm going back to the old me
Reaffirming the decision to revert to the old self.
I'm, I'm going back
Repeating the determination to go back.
To the old me, who's worse than me
Highlighting the negative traits of the old self.
How did I allow it to get this bad?
Reflecting on allowing the situation to deteriorate.
Pulled out my teeth so I could starve half-mad
Metaphorically describing self-harm to cope with mental anguish.
The worst part is I often look back at you like a fond memory
Nostalgically viewing the person as a cherished memory.
But you won't leave, I need you to leave
Expressing the desire for the person to leave.
Why am I stuck to you like salt in the sea?
Feeling emotionally bound to the person despite the need for separation.
You never meant anything to me
Denying the person's significance despite lingering emotions.
So, why are you my everything?
Questioning why the person is still crucial despite lack of meaning.
It's like a rat and its cheese, but instead it's a boy and his ghost
Drawing a metaphor of a boy and his ghost to represent an unshakeable connection.
I'm, I'm going back to the old me
Reiterating the decision to return to the old self.
I'm, I'm going back
Repeating the resolution to go back.
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