Anxiety
Navigating Life's Turmoil: Living with Anxiety Through Cowboy Dead's Melodic Lens
Lyrics
And I live with anxiety
The speaker acknowledges living with anxiety.
And I live with anxiety
Repetition emphasizing the ongoing experience of anxiety.
And I live with anxiety
Continuation of the acknowledgment of living with anxiety.
Anxiety, anxiety
Repetition emphasizing the intensity of the anxiety.
Netflix and Hulu won't change thing
Streaming services won't alleviate the anxiety.
I walk around in circles and I over heat
The speaker describes physical restlessness and discomfort.
I smoke this weed to change what I perceive
Using weed as a coping mechanism to alter perception.
If I choose to go out, If I choose to leave
Contemplating the consequences of going out or leaving.
I'll be sucked dry of what I achieved
Fear of losing achievements if choosing to leave.
But what I've achieved is arresting me
Feeling trapped by past accomplishments.
I walk around in circles till I over heat
Repetition of walking in circles, emphasizing the struggle.
I smoke this weed to change how I see
Continued use of weed to alter perception and cope.
Last time I left this room I conned my boss and I took the check
Past deceptive behavior to cope with the situation.
He grabbed my shirt and balled his fist he said what did you expect
Confrontation with consequences of deceptive actions.
I said hello boss man I hate this shit so make it quick, so make it quick
Expressing dissatisfaction with work and desire for a quick conversation.
I wanna get fucked up and lose all consciousness
Expressing a desire to escape reality through intoxication.
Cuz I live with anxiety
Reiteration of living with anxiety.
And I live with anxiety
Repetition emphasizing ongoing experience of anxiety.
And I live with anxiety
Continuation of the acknowledgment of living with anxiety.
Anxiety, Anxiety
Repetition emphasizing the intensity of the anxiety.
Not socially or OCD just the one where its hard to think
Describing a specific type of anxiety that makes thinking difficult.
I'll make a blueprint of what I should do and it fit so logically
Creating plans that seem logical but are discarded impulsively.
And by the afternoon I've ripped it all up even though its costing me
Struggling with inconsistency and its cost.
All I want is consistency and to dry my receptors of dopamine
Expressing a desire for consistency and a detachment from pleasure chemicals.
I wanna be a machine without the need of a human being
Desiring to be emotionless and mechanical.
I often think that I'm in too deep and I need to get clean
Contemplating the need for recovery and cleansing.
I just need a form of therapy and this notebook is helping me
Finding therapy through writing in a notebook.
This notebook is helping me
Repetition emphasizing the therapeutic effect of the notebook.
Yeah this notebook is helping me
Further emphasis on the notebook as a helpful tool.
And they need me 5 days week
Feeling obligated to work five days a week.
I skipped them all and got a raise
Skipping work but still receiving a raise.
I stayed in and fell asleep then woke up to my impulsive brain
Indulging in impulsive behavior, potentially self-destructive.
Maybe I'm not okay maybe I'm not all sane but success starts with today
Doubting mental stability but recognizing the need for change.
I'll try to find a place focus on a mortgage rate
Setting goals for the future despite internal struggles.
And every fourteen days I'll have some money to save
Planning for financial stability and regular income.
I'll have something to gain
Expressing a desire for personal gain and improvement.
Put my trust into myself cuz when all else fails
Relying on self-trust as external support may be unreliable.
They won't be there to help
Avoiding dependence on others for help.
Anxiety, anxiety
Repetition emphasizing ongoing experience of anxiety.
I live with anxiety
Reiteration of living with anxiety.
Anxiety, anxiety
Repetition emphasizing ongoing experience of anxiety.
I live with anxiety
Continuation of the acknowledgment of living with anxiety.
Anxiety, anxiety, anxiety, anxiety
Intensifying the acknowledgment of anxiety through repetition.
I live with anxiety
Reiteration of living with anxiety.
Anxiety, anxiety
Intensifying the acknowledgment of anxiety through repetition.
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