Reckoning
Soul's Battle: Confronting Self-Hate through Reckoning
Lyrics
I'm in my head again
I'm trapped in my thoughts once again
I stand exposed
I am vulnerable and exposed
This self hate
Feeling intense self-loathing
You will see
Others will witness my self-hate
Through reckoning
Anticipating a moment of judgment or retribution
This self hate is crippling
My self-hate is overwhelming and debilitating
Day by day hoping for a reckoning
Every day, I long for a reckoning or resolution
The pain gnawing at my soul
Pain is persistently eating away at my soul
I'll keep drowning in this fucking hole
I will continue to drown in despair
This bottle will bury my sorrow
Seeking solace in alcohol to bury my sorrows
My sins guarantee no tomorrow
My sins ensure there's no promising future
Take my pain and the horror
Asking to take away my pain and horror
My sins guarantee no tomorrow
My sins guarantee a bleak tomorrow
I beg for no mercy
Requesting no mercy or leniency
I've got nothing to gain
Having nothing to gain from the situation
I live unworthy
Feeling undeserving of life
I look for the pain
Actively seeking pain
Swallow regret
Consciously accepting and digesting regret
My emptiness
An inner void or emptiness
Filled with hatred
Filled with intense hatred
Swallow regret
Accepting and digesting regret once again
My emptiness
Experiencing inner emptiness once again
Filled with hatred
Filled with intense hatred once again
Swallow regret
Repeat: Accepting and digesting regret
My emptiness
Repeat: Experiencing inner emptiness
I'm in my head again
Reiteration: Trapped in my thoughts
My flaws are all exposed
Reiteration: Vulnerability and exposure
My demons hold disdain
My inner demons hold contempt or scorn
I'm in my head again
Reiteration: Trapped in my thoughts
My flaws are all exposed
Reiteration: Vulnerability and exposure
My demons hold disdain
Reiteration: Inner demons hold contempt
I'm in my head again
Reiteration: Trapped in my thoughts
My flaws are all exposed
Reiteration: Vulnerability and exposure
This self hate is crippling
Repetition: Overwhelming self-hate
Day by day hoping for a reckoning
Repetition: Day by day, longing for resolution
Day by day hoping for a fucking reckoning
Intensifying the desire for a reckoning
The pain gnawing at my soul
Repetition: Persistent soul-devouring pain
Day by day hoping for a fucking reckoning
Reinforcing the hope for a reckoning
The pain gnawing at my soul
Repetition: Soul-devouring pain
I'll keep drowning in this hole
Continuing to drown in despair day by day
Day by day
Repetition: Day by day
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