Living the Dream
Navigating Shadows: Unveiling the Inner Struggle in 'Living the Dream'
Lyrics
I know that I seem fine on the outside
I may appear outwardly well, but internally there are struggles.
But the smile is too wide for it to be not mine
The smile I wear is forced, hinting at hidden emotional pain.
But it’s been placed there strategically by a demon at my doorstep
A metaphorical demon has orchestrated the appearance of happiness at the speaker's doorstep.
I want them to hear me but I need them to approach
The speaker wants attention but needs others to approach them.
I can’t do this on my own please read the words that I wrote
A plea for others to read and understand the speaker's written words.
I’m trying my best to keep on grinning and keep on fighting
Despite difficulties, the speaker is striving to maintain a positive demeanor and keep fighting.
But I feel like I can’t win, and I should stop the lighting
Feelings of defeat and a desire to end the internal struggle.
My quiet place is the only location where I feel whole
A quiet place is essential for the speaker's well-being.
But what’s a quiet place to you when they won’t stop screaming for more
Despite seeking solace, external pressures and demands persist.
I said I miss you so
Expressing a longing or vulnerability.
You said leave me alone
Rejection and a plea for solitude.
Why must we play these games
Questioning the need for emotional games in relationships.
When you say that I have changed
Others claim a change in the speaker, leading to internal conflict.
Alone on an empty satellite
Isolation and detachment on a metaphorical empty satellite.
A one way ticket to far beyond the empty solar signs
Heading towards an unknown destination beyond familiar signs.
But I was misconstrued, and then galactically denied
Misunderstood and denied, possibly in a larger cosmic sense.
My heart was the meat and that girl was the cleaver
A metaphorical depiction of heartbreak.
I mean, what’s the point in living the dream if it was brought by a fever
Questioning the value of pursuing dreams if they bring pain.
Everyone around me kept saying I should leave her
External advice to leave a relationship.
But what’s the point in listening when I was convinced I need her
Despite advice, the speaker feels convinced they need the person.
A moonrise crashing over vicious, frothing waves
Imagery of a tumultuous scene, possibly reflecting inner turmoil.
This idea of what I want, and a destiny that I’ve made
Desire for a particular future and a self-created destiny.
Finally looking forwards I put my car into drive
Moving forward and regaining what was lost.
Fulfilling myself again of all the things I’d been deprived
Self-fulfillment after experiencing deprivation.
So I walk down this winding crazy path
Navigating a challenging and unpredictable path.
To the place where I talked to all of them last
Returning to a place where significant conversations occurred.
Y’know, these people in my head of dreams
Mention of imaginary people in the speaker's thoughts or dreams.
I’m so fucked up in the head it seems
An acknowledgment of mental struggles.
Or is it all just a grand shakespearean tragedy
Wondering if life is a tragic play, questioning its authenticity.
A construed version of my own reality
Doubt about the true nature of the speaker's reality.
Y’know, I have it so good, and it should be okay
Despite external positivity, the speaker grapples with negative thoughts.
But I’m faced with these same bad thoughts every single damn day
Daily confrontation with persistent negative thoughts.
My grades are slipping down icy riverbanks
Academic performance declining and slipping away like a riverbank.
My health is tipping over an empty acid tank
Physical health deteriorating, likened to an empty acid tank.
Why can’t it just be good for me
Frustration at the lack of positivity in life.
A second meal of joy to feed
Desire for sustained happiness and fulfillment.
I just want to stay elated on top of a mountain
An aspiration to be on top of life's challenges and difficulties.
And not be in this rut accompanied only by myself, and my so called fucking talent
Expressing frustration with personal struggles and perceived talent.
I know that I seem fine
Reiteration of seeming fine, with an underlying struggle.
The smile is too wide
A repetition of the forced smile, suggesting internal turmoil.
Just push me to the side
A request to be overlooked and not taken seriously.
And I’ll try my best to shrug it off and keep on being kind
An attempt to brush off difficulties and maintain kindness.
Comment