Lyrics
So do you remember the moment we weren’t turning back
Reflecting on a crucial moment with no possibility of turning back.
Cuz’ I dissociated mostly when things would get bad
Experiencing dissociation, particularly during difficult times.
I can’t even tell you half the scars that I left on your brain
Acknowledging causing emotional scars, unsure of their extent.
I’m hoping with time they fade away
Hoping that over time, the emotional scars will diminish.
I made a bad bad bet when I bet with you
Expressing regret for making a significant and detrimental bet.
I’m fighting hard
Engaging in a tough struggle or battle.
Been lost in the dark
Feeling lost in a difficult situation or emotionally.
But I wrote a tune
Creating a song as a form of expression, possibly during hardship.
It makes me sad but I’m fine Just hope that
Sadness, but with an acceptance of the situation. Hoping the other person hears the song.
Hope that you hear it sometime I made a bad bad bet
Reiterating the regretful bet but highlighting personal growth.
But at least we grew
Finding a positive aspect in the growth that occurred despite the regret.
And I hear them talking
Noticing others talking or gossiping.
Yeah they all say the same stupid thing
Dismissing repetitive and unhelpful advice from others.
Like give it some time
Encountering clichéd advice to wait and see the future unfold.
Just wait and see what your future will bring
Feeling unable to escape past hardships since birth.
But I can’t escape the curses given
Being burdened by enduring challenges associated with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).
To me back when I was born
Expressing a desire for control before facing difficulties.
BPD is all I know
Finding a sense of completeness by sacrificing one's integrity or values.
I want control before I go
Experiencing sadness and tears due to the consequences of the bet.
I feel so whole when I sell my soul
Wishing for more time with the other person.
It makes me sad and I cry
Reiterating the negative outcome of the regretful bet.
Just wish we
Experiencing the consequences of the bet.
Wish we could waste some more time
Feeling the impact of the bet, possibly regret or pain.
I made a bad bad bet when I bet with you
Recalling the negative consequences of the regretful bet.
And now I’m feeling it
Feeling the repercussions of the bet.
(I like that)
Expressing appreciation for a particular aspect of the situation.
When I bet with you
Reflecting on the impact of the bet.
When I bet with you
Repeating the acknowledgment of the impact of the bet.
When I bet with you
-When I bet with you
-Bad bad bet
Reiterating the regretful nature of the bet.
And now I
Experiencing the consequences of the regretful bet.
I get what I get
Accepting the outcomes, whatever they may be.
I made a bad bad bet but I will improve
Acknowledging the regretful bet but expressing a commitment to improvement.
You sent me a text on my birthday hoping I was well Girl I can’t describe the pain I’ve been through Surviving this hell
Recalling a painful message on the speaker's birthday, describing the endured pain.
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