Lyrics
I hate that you mean nothing now
I resent that you hold no significance for me anymore
I hate that we talked every day
I dislike that we used to communicate daily
The best hello I ever had
Our initial greeting was the best I've experienced
The worst goodbye to date
The most painful farewell I've had so far
I never was the one to be so sentimental, honestly
I'm usually not sentimental, but time has made me question your importance
But now time has gone by and I'm wondering why you ever meant a thing to me
Reflecting on why you meant something to me now
I'm not saying that I miss you, I never even kissed you
I don't claim to miss you; we never even kissed
I never even got to hold the hand that walked away
Regret for not holding the hand that walked away
I'm just saying that I wish that you didn't just insist that I was better then
Expressing a desire that you didn't insist I was better than I am
You left me without confidence
You departed, leaving me lacking in confidence
You're just a vulture
Labeling you as a vulture, someone who preys on vulnerability
The late nights in the basement of my parents house
Recalling late nights in the basement, a significant location
You said you'd miss the taste of cherry alcohol
You mentioned missing the taste of cherry alcohol
I didn't notice then, but how could you plan to miss something
Realizing you planned to miss it only if leaving was part of the plan
If you weren't planning leaving at all
Reiterating that you're a vulture, emphasizing predatory behavior
You're just a vulture
Repeating the characterization of the person as a vulture
You only ever want me when I'm broken
Stating that you're sought only when in a broken state
You're just a vulture
Reiterating the vulture analogy, highlighting opportunistic actions
You grab a hold and rip me until I'm open
Describing how you grab and harm, leaving emotional wounds
And I want you so bad, but I know you're so bad for me
Expressing a conflicting desire for someone you acknowledge is harmful
A vicious cycle circling around like a disease
Characterizing the relationship as a destructive cycle
And just for some closure or clarity
Seeking closure or clarity on the reasons for departure
Why did you decide to leave and what the fuck was wrong with me?
Questioning why the person left and reflecting on perceived flaws
And I never said I love you so there's no need to right now
Not having said "I love you" and implying it's not necessary now
Then I never really said it so I wouldn't quite know how
Acknowledging a difficulty in expressing love, possibly due to absence
Then I never had to say it because you weren't around
Highlighting that expressing love was unnecessary in your absence
It seems you were always just to busy then
Perceiving the person as consistently busy and unavailable
You left me without confidence
Reiterating the impact of their departure on your confidence
I never saw a reason to look deeper in your eyes
Never finding a reason to deeply connect through eye contact
But it didn't really matter they were only your disguise
Realizing their eyes were a disguise, suggesting deception
And the fact of the matter is I didn't matter
Feeling insignificant and unimportant in the relationship
And the fact of the matter is I didn't matter
Reiterating a sense of insignificance and lack of importance
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