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I thought that I'd be fine
I initially believed I would be okay.
maybe get to know myself
Perhaps I could discover more about myself.
but it's hard when the lights all turn off
It becomes challenging when everything goes dark (metaphorically); I feel like I'm in a difficult situation.
I feel like I'm living hell
In the absence of external distractions (lights off), my emotional state seems unbearable, like living in hell.
maybe I just need time
Maybe I just need some time to heal.
think that I read somewhere that shit helps
I recall reading that certain things could help in such situations.
but it's hard when the lights all turn off
Similar to before, the challenge persists when the lights go off, and my medication is depleted.
and I've run out of my pills
But, how are you doing? How's your mother?
I inquire about your well-being and that of your mother, expressing my concern for her.
I've been worried about her
and are your panic attacks getting easier or harder?
I ask about the status of your panic attacks, wondering if they are becoming more manageable or more severe.
feels like I'm pulling teeth out, the silence.. no conversation.
Communication feels difficult, akin to extracting teeth; there's a lack of conversation.
been speaking to myself, I think she thinks I'm going crazy
Feeling isolated, I resort to talking to myself, fearing that others may perceive me as losing my sanity.
Did you get the job you want? you always said you hate your boss
I inquire about your job situation and recall your dislike for your boss.
and I know it's selfish but I hate that you're smiling when I'm not
Despite knowing it's selfish, I resent seeing you happy when I'm not.
I know it's selfish, but I can't help it.
Recognizing the selfishness, I admit I can't control these feelings.
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