Lyrics
It's not my day today
Experiencing a difficult day
I got a debt that I must pay
Having a debt that must be repaid
Been searching for another way
Seeking an alternative solution
Out of this hole I call my grave
Trying to escape a metaphorical grave or difficult situation
Wishing this was all pretend
Wishing the current circumstances were not real
Just waiting for my life to end
Feeling a sense of despair, waiting for life to end
A soulless being
Describing oneself as lacking a soul
Disgusting feeling
Expressing a strong negative emotion
This all started when they cancelled my rapture
Referring to a negative event, possibly a significant disappointment
I knew I was different as they all pointed in laughter
Feeling different and facing ridicule from others
I questioned everything I lost my mind
Experiencing a crisis of identity, mental instability
Start your dig you'll hate what you will find
Warning about unpleasant discoveries when investigating oneself
Always searching for answers
Continual pursuit of answers or meaning
Every time I looked around the room
Feeling negativity and judgment from others in the surroundings
I sense their hate, they see disgust.
Sensing hatred and disgust directed at oneself
Assumed
Being assumed or misunderstood by others
Then I burnt all my bridges
Burning bridges, possibly cutting off connections with others
This is the last time I'll say it this way
Last time expressing a particular sentiment
I feel my soul's always slipping away
Feeling a constant loss of one's soul or essence
I made a deal with the devil to stay
Making a pact with negative consequences
And now I've got a debt that I must pay
Having a debt resulting from a deal with the devil
You don't know what it feels like
Expressing the challenge of living with unique difficulties
To be living in these shoes on a daily life
No specific information provided
A soulless being
Describing oneself as lacking a soul (repeated)
I was buried alive, searching for light, Dead.
Metaphorically buried alive, seeking illumination
The only color I see was defining me, Red.
Defining identity through a significant, possibly negative, color
Spilling blood for protection
Sacrificing for self-preservation
Wrestled with my thoughts, I hate my past
Struggling with past regrets and self-hatred
Screamed so hard begged for a 2nd chance.
Expressing desperation for a fresh start
Then I was Resurrected
Undergoing a metaphorical resurrection or renewal
I've come for vengeance, took control of life
Seeking revenge and taking control of one's life
Nothing to lose, I've been desensitized
Feeling numb or indifferent due to past experiences
Fuck this world, was rejected.
Rejecting the world after experiencing rejection
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