Lyrics
With every drink downed there's my life that I shorten
Drinking is shortening the singer's life.
Inflamed insides acting I can afford it
Engaging in harmful behavior despite financial consequences.
I'll get a transplant then I'll be good as new
Consideration of a transplant as a potential solution to health issues.
But it would never be the future that I'll be looking to
The future is uncertain and not a motivating factor for change.
Bad routines ain't claiming I'm clean
Denial of bad habits and their impact on cleanliness.
They don't know ways out they will serve the machine
Society unknowingly serves a destructive machine.
Won't prepare today maybe put the belt aside
Delaying necessary actions, possibly referencing procrastination.
Save it for a rainy day guess I'm waiting there inside
Reserving coping mechanisms for difficult times.
Taking diuretics I bet it's a death sentence
Taking diuretics is seen as a potentially fatal decision.
Stepping out without a mask occupying the medics
Risking health by not following safety measures.
I couldn't fathom a life without my addiction
Expressing a dependence on addiction for a meaningful life.
And we could never get right still creating this friction
Continuing destructive behavior despite its negative consequences.
Opposites attract ain't that feeling a fact
Attraction to opposites, seeking distraction from reality.
To tell the truth I just wanted someone to distract
Desiring someone to divert attention from personal issues.
Me from driving off in a reckless attempt
Seeking distraction from life's challenges with reckless actions.
To see what's on the other side when you get to the end
Curiosity about what comes after life's challenges.
I'm in a prison I'm tied down and captive
Feeling trapped and constrained in life.
My head's hiding elsewhere easily distracted
Difficulty focusing, easily getting distracted mentally.
I can't let go of what I'm beholden
Unable to let go of obligations or responsibilities.
I won't give in no I won't be folding
Determined not to give in or surrender.
Voice in my head tormenting then a taunt
Mental torment and self-criticism.
Try to ask what's the reason but await in no response
Seeking reasons for inner struggles but finding none.
My irrational pleasures I find enjoyment in blow
Deriving pleasure from irrational and destructive behavior.
I took a good look around waking up in the snow
Waking up in an undesirable situation, possibly a consequence of past actions.
It's no to money the leeching the people who feed
People taking advantage of the singer for personal gain.
They want a cut out my pocket from the way that I lead
Others wanting a share of the singer's resources.
You wanna be me till the moment we meet
Envy from others wanting to be in the singer's position.
You see the things I worry bout then you don't see the need
Unseen challenges and needs behind the singer's facade.
Wallow in hate and my misanthropy
Indulging in hatred and a dislike for humanity.
I wonder when I'm gonna start living happily
Uncertainty about when a happy life will begin.
They tell me hold out lights at the end of the tunnel
Receiving advice to endure difficulties for a brighter future.
I'm going 90 miles an hour I'm about to unbuckle
Driving recklessly, possibly with suicidal thoughts.
And off the side of the road deteriorate in a field
A metaphorical crash and burn, facing the consequences of actions.
Yeah we could feel the impact of the fence and the wheels
Experiencing the impact of a destructive event.
No alcohol in my body I did it with full intent
Intentionally avoiding alcohol with a clear purpose.
The smell of burning gasoline that I've grown to resent
Disgust towards past habits, symbolized by the smell of burning gasoline.
I'm in a prison I'm tied down and captive
Reiterating the feeling of being trapped and constrained.
My head's hiding elsewhere easily distracted
Mentally distant, struggling with focus and attention.
I can't let go of what I'm beholden
Unable to release oneself from obligations or responsibilities.
I won't give in no I won't be folding
Reaffirming the determination not to give in or surrender.
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