and then rolls back
Unveiling the Raw Truth: How I Became Invisible's Journey through Self-Discovery
Lyrics
I’m coming clean, I’m coming out right
I am confessing, being honest
I’m being up front as I can
I am straightforward to the best of my ability
There is no truth in my cowardice
My fearfulness lacks truth
Nothing there of who I am
There's nothing revealing about my cowardice
Because space is just a metaphor
Space is a symbolic concept
Science is just a game
Science is like a game
And I’m not finding hope in carrying on
Struggling to find hope in continuing
I can’t even use my name
I can't even use my own name
There’s an end to all this artifice
An end to artificiality
An end to all my lies
An end to deception
But I can’t find the strength to power through
Struggling to overcome, be louder than my pain
To be louder than my cries
To surpass the intensity of my cries
Of voyagers and altered parallels
Mentions of travelers and alternate realities
Of a world beyond my mind
Exploration of a world beyond one's thoughts
I don’t mind, I don’t mind anything
Indifference to everything
Just let me stay alive
Desire to stay alive
I’ll stay alive
Emphasizing the will to survive
So I climb out of the abstraction
Stepping out of abstraction into reality
And pull myself into the real
Engaging with the tangible world
I’m not ready for the abject
Not prepared for extreme experiences
Not ready for the feeling
Unready for intense emotions
Of the ghost haunting the morning
Ghostly presence in the morning
Next to someone I can’t see
Next to an unseen person
It's nothing new, I guess I’m used to it
Accustomed to the situation
Every day a new defeat
Every day brings a new defeat
And the truth is I’m not anyone
I lack a distinct identity
A blank slate to draw upon
A blank canvas for others
Picture yourself in its borders
Imagine yourself within certain limits
Leave your mark and then move on
Leave your mark and move forward
I’m covered up in scribbled art
Covered in chaotic artwork
In bloodied prints and painted scars
Bearing evidence of struggles
And that’s all I’ll have to last me
Art as a lasting legacy
Til the last shred falls apart
Until the very end
I’ll fall apart
Breaking down emotionally
But I’ll make it art
Turning the breakdown into art
I’ll fall apart
Emphasizing the process of falling apart
And leave my mark
Leaving a meaningful impact
I’ll fall apart
Accepting the emotional breakdown
But I’ll make it art
Turning the breakdown into art again
I’ll fall apart
Emphasizing the process of falling apart again
And leave my mark
Leaving a lasting impression again
So call me anything you want to
Open to any label or judgment
I’ll take it with a smile
Willing to accept criticism with a smile
Degrade and confiscate my everything
Allowing degradation and confiscation of self
Use me as your denial
Being used as a form of denial
I know there’s someone else inside
Acknowledging another self within
Who just keeps fucking up my life
A self causing problems
So I’ll keep moving on in time
Continuing to move forward in time
And just keep running to stay alive
Running to survive
And say goodnight
Ending with a farewell
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