Green Lights
Colorblind Love: Navigating Pain and Loss in Jacob Mallow's Green Lights
Lyrics
Just like the ice in my cup
Feeling cold emotionally, detached
My skin's cold to the touch
Physically distant or emotionally unresponsive
I hurt myself from time to time
Self-inflicting pain due to a hectic lifestyle
'Cause I'm always in a rush
Constantly rushing, possibly leading to mistakes
There's a screw in my brain
Mental instability or inner turmoil
Sometimes I go insane
Periods of losing control or feeling overwhelmed
And it's okay most of the time
Numbing oneself to pain, emotional desensitization
I barely even feel the pain
Numbness to pain as a coping mechanism
Where do you go now
Questions about a relationship: concern for the other person's feelings and well-being, a desire to stay together despite challenges
What do you see
-How does your heart feel in a world without me
-Where do you go now
-What do you see
-I'm not crazy, I don't wanna leave
-Leave, leave
Repetition of the desire to not leave
Must be a hole in my stomach
Feeling empty or incomplete, lacking satisfaction
When I sit down to eat
Physical and emotional hunger, feeling deceived by appearances
I never get filled up
-Oh how my eyes deceive me
-There's a pit in my chest
Emptiness after a significant departure, struggling to cope
From when you turned and left
-Stepped into that stupid car I love
-I couldn't catch my breath
-Where do you go now
Continued concern about the other person's life and emotions after separation, seeking closure
What do you see
-How does your heart feel in a world without me
-Where do you go now
-What do you see
-Are you at peace
-Do you still drive that piece of shit
Recalling shared memories, a sense of nostalgia for past moments together
Do you remember when I crashed into the back of it
-Hopped in the front seat, you'd grab my hand
-Like you stood on my feet when I would make us dance
-Chasing the green lights
Nostalgia for shared dreams, acknowledging a flipped reality
You were keeping track
-Said you'd outlive me with your garden in the back
-Once told a stranger that we're in love
-Oh how our table's been flipped over on us
-Now I stop at green lights
Stopped progression due to the overwhelming presence of the past love, feeling unable to move forward emotionally
Cause I'm hypnotized
-Your love was too bright
-And now I'm colorblind
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