Lyrics
As a kid, I was never respected
Reflecting on a lack of respect during childhood.
'Cause I skeptical about having friends, yeah
Expressing skepticism about forming friendships.
But I’ve never been too affective, have I?
Questioning one's effectiveness in dealing with life.
Hectic about recieving lectures, then I
Feeling anxious about receiving lectures.
Became technical about mathematics, then I
Transitioning to a focus on mathematics and becoming technical.
Became a devil in their eyes, but am I one?
Acknowledging being perceived as a devil but questioning if it's true.
They see a monster when I only see a boy
Others see a monster, but the persona sees themselves as a boy.
A simple child with his simple mind made toys
Describing oneself as a simple child with simple mind-made toys.
And they take him as the devil
People consider the persona a devil.
As I take his precious treasure, and they build his little hell
Referencing the negative impact of judgment on the persona's life.
I never had bullies, I had teachers
Having teachers as adversaries instead of bullies.
I never knew a student could be crucified in school, see
Experiencing a crucifixion-like treatment of students in school.
For them I never knew shit I was lucid dreamin', lunatic
Feeling misunderstood and labeled as a lucid dreaming lunatic.
A fool kid for the cool kidsaAnd I was useless
Being considered a fool kid by the cool kids.
But that was bullshit, I knew I could do shit
Rejecting the belief of being useless and knowing one can achieve.
I never understood them, shit that was confusing
Expressing confusion about others' behavior.
When you're pushed into a corner and you’re torn up
Describing the difficulty of facing challenges and feeling torn.
Without a cushion to rest your eyes
Not having a comforting space when facing hardships.
Only music, games or science
Turning to music, games, or science as solace.
To help, 'cause the head is cryin'
Using these interests to cope with emotional distress.
But it's you, kid. Yeah, it's you kid
Empowering oneself by acknowledging personal strength.
And you'll never live without it
Stressing the importance of individual resilience.
They see a monster when I only see a boy
Reiteration that others see a monster while the persona sees a boy.
A simple child with his simple mind made toys
Describing oneself as a simple child with mind-made toys.
And they take him as the devil
Others view the persona as a devil.
As I take his precious treasure, and they build his little hell
Highlighting the impact of judgment on the persona's life.
Dah, dah, dah
Repetition of a sound (Dah, dah, dah) for emphasis.
They build his little hell
Emphasizing the creation of a negative environment.
His little hell
Reiteration of the negative environment being built.
I had the Peter Pan syndrome and I still have it
Acknowledging the Peter Pan syndrome, a desire to avoid adulthood.
Didn't wanna live in a world full of dim habbits
Expressing a reluctance to live in a world with negative habits.
Full of fury addicts, with their bills sagging
Commenting on societal issues like addiction and financial struggles.
I look into my past that day in a classroom
Reflecting on a past experience in a classroom.
I was sittin' in the back listenin’ placidly to her when I asked a question
Listening to a teacher placidly, posing a challenging question.
She thought it was too challenging to answer so
Getting ejected for asking a challenging question.
I got ejected and I got a message to my parents she was laughin’ at me
Experiencing humiliation as the teacher laughs at the persona.
Shit, I'll never get a grip after all the attacks I have packed
Feeling unable to recover after enduring numerous attacks.
She pulled my hair every time she could
Recalling physical aggression from someone who is now faced with consequences.
Now it’s her turn to get by my mood
Expressing a desire for the aggressor to understand the impact.
Should've killed her when I got her good
Regretting not taking stronger action against the aggressor.
They see a monster when I only see a boy
Reiteration that others see a monster while the persona sees a boy.
A simple child with his simple mind made toys
Describing oneself as a simple child with mind-made toys.
And they take him as the devil
Others view the persona as a devil.
As I take his precious treasure, and they build his little hell
Highlighting the impact of judgment on the persona's life.
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