The Demon
Battling Inner Demons: A Journey of Addiction
Lyrics
It's been so long, I need another bad
Expressing a longing for another intense or harmful experience.
Just one more fix, the best I've ever had
Desire for another dose of something addictive or pleasurable.
It's sad to say, I've felt this way before
Acknowledging previous experiences of similar feelings.
No self control, good sense thrown out the door
Lack of restraint, disregarding rationality or sensibility.
I called my friend, said let's hook up today
Initiating plans with a friend to acquire the substance.
Sounds good he said, today I just got paid
Excitement about being paid and having resources to obtain the substance.
We went downtown, we knew where we could score
Going to a familiar place to acquire the substance.
Bought just enough, to keep us wanting more
Purchasing a sufficient amount to maintain the craving.
Now back at home, we sat down with our hits
Consuming the substance in a comfortable setting.
I packed the pipe, and put it to my lips, and oh my god
Preparing and using the substance, experiencing an intense sensation.
It felt so good, I knew it would, I hope this will never end
Feeling immense pleasure and hoping for its continuation.
A moment passed, come down was fast, I passed the pipe to my friend
Quickly experiencing the downside or come-down from the high.
Oh god I screamed, I hate this shit, I'll never do this again
Regretting the experience and swearing off its repetition.
My whole chest hurt, I thought I would die, I hope this is not the end
Experiencing physical discomfort and fearing the worst.
Now with a clear head I'm thinking straight
Having regained sobriety and thinking clearly.
I still have the wanting but it can wait
Still desiring but deciding to resist the urge.
It's not fun to die
Asserting that it's not worth risking one's life for fleeting pleasure.
For a minute or a night
Emphasizing that temporary pleasure isn’t worth the risk of death.
It's better to be free
Preferably choosing freedom over being controlled by addiction.
Nothing controlling me
Valuing autonomy and not being under the influence's control.
I think about just one more every night
Ongoing contemplation about succumbing to the desire for more.
Guess that's the demon I have to fight
Identifying the struggle against the inner demon or addiction.
It's not fun to die
Reiterating that it's not worth risking life for temporary pleasure.
For a minute or a night
Highlighting the importance of freedom over transient enjoyment.
It's better to be free
Choosing autonomy and resisting external control.
Nothing controlling me
(Empty line, no specific meaning provided)
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