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Expression of uncertainty or hesitation
There's no one else to blame, I cause my own solitude
Acknowledging responsibility for own loneliness
I'm the reason why my heart is ripped apart in two
Feeling personally responsible for a broken heart
Looked in the mirror and that person there I hardly knew
Reflection on a changed self, a sense of unfamiliarity
Like who the fuck am I? And who have I been talking to
Questioning one's identity and the people they talk to
Cause these voices in my head are always talking back
Reference to inner struggles and conflicting thoughts
Conversing with myself cause I feel like I'm all I have
Isolation due to feeling alone and self-reliant
And I'mma' take the blame, ain't tryna' point no fucking fingers
Acceptance of blame without blaming others
I can't escape the rain, no matter what, pain always lingers
Recognition of enduring pain despite efforts to escape
I stay away from everyone I love
Keeping distance from loved ones as a coping mechanism
No matter what I do I still feel like I'm not enough
Perpetual feeling of inadequacy despite efforts
Oh would you give a fuck if I just chose to end it all
Contemplation of self-harm or suicide
And if you do then how the fuck can you just watch me fall
Questioning the empathy of those witnessing personal struggles
Can't you see my walls are closing in
Describing the feeling of being trapped and suffocated
Can't you hear the pain and suffering I'm holding in
Expressing hidden emotional pain and suffering
I need help, I'm just afraid to ask
Acknowledging the need for help but fear of asking
I'm not longer in control, I'm just waiting to crash
Loss of control and anticipation of a negative outcome
I'm so fucked up, I know
Acknowledgment of personal struggles and brokenness
I have been dying slow
Admitting a slow process of self-destruction
Please take my pain, away
Plea for relief from emotional pain
I can no longer stay
Expressing a desire to escape current circumstances
I isolate myself cause I'm embarrassed of this shit
Isolation due to shame and dislike of one's existence
Cause everybody knows I hate the fact that I exist
Public discomfort with personal issues
I let my secrets out and everybody knows the truth
Revealing personal truths to others
They know my suicidal tendencies are self-induced
Acknowledging self-induced suicidal tendencies
I know there's no excuse why I should wanna' end my life
Reflecting on the lack of justification for ending one's life
I'm well aware the grass is greener on the other side
Awareness of potential for a better life
I should be grateful right
Questioning the absence of gratitude despite awareness
So where's the disconnect
Expressing confusion about emotional detachment
When I feel happy why does sadness always interject
Wondering why sadness interrupts moments of happiness
It's like my misery is predetermined
Belief in predetermined misery
I try and smile but deep inside I'm always weak and hurtin
Struggling to hide inner vulnerability and pain
I know the devil's near and always lurkin
Acknowledging the presence of negativity
I feel his presence every time the sun begins emerging
Sensing the influence of negative forces
I been searching for so fucking long
Enduring a long and challenging search for happiness
For a light that will remain permanently on
Seeking a constant source of positivity
But that light forever seems to fade
Expressing the difficulty of avoiding darkness
Perhaps the dark is just impossible to evade
Considering darkness as unavoidable
I'm so fucked up, I know
Reiteration of personal struggles and brokenness
I have been dying slow
Admitting a slow process of self-destruction (repeated)
Please take my pain, away
Plea for relief from emotional pain (repeated)
I can no longer stay
Expressing a desire to escape current circumstances (repeated)
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