In My Head
Navigating Shadows: Like Father's Reflections on Mental Turmoil
Lyrics
I'm a bridge past unhappy
I feel like a link to a past filled with unhappiness
Bordering on insane
On the verge of losing my sanity
I'm afraid if I don't stand up too quick they're gonna put me away
Fearful that if I stand up too quickly, they'll institutionalize me
I'm afraid I belong here
Concerned that I truly belong in this place of the lost and mentally disturbed
Amongst the lost and deranged
Amongst those who are lost and mentally deranged
Finally run with a crowd who gets my jokes, the way I lean in to pain
Finally found a group of people who understand my humor and my tendency to embrace pain
What's it like to think so clearly?
Reflecting on the clarity of thought and wondering what it's like
Just a few just shots of whisky and I feel better than I have in years
A few shots of whisky provide a temporary escape, feeling better than I have in years
And I swear, I'll keep it all inside here
Committing to keeping my struggles internalized
I've got one foot out the door
One foot ready to leave, seeking an escape
The other foot in the grave
The other foot trapped in a dangerous situation, symbolizing a precarious position
I don't know where I'd be right now only I had stayed
Uncertain about my current state, contemplating the consequences of different choices
Maybe it's just the weather
Suspecting that my emotions may be influenced by external factors, perhaps the weather
Or maybe I'm fucked up in my head
Questioning if there's something wrong with my mental state
When the smoke fills up my room
Using smoke as a metaphor for confusion or distress, retreating to bed as a coping mechanism
I'll take just take myself to bed and stay there
Choosing to stay in bed as a way of dealing with overwhelming emotions
What's it like to see so clearly?
Contemplating the clarity of vision and its impact on one's emotional state
Rolling up all my emotions
Rolling up or suppressing emotions, feeling a sense of relief
And I feel better than I have in years
Experiencing a temporary improvement in mood, better than in years
And I swear, I'll leave it all behind here
Promising to leave behind current struggles and emotional burdens
I've got one foot out the door
One foot prepared to exit, seeking a way out
The other foot in the grave
The other foot trapped in a dangerous situation, symbolizing a precarious position (repeated)
I don't know where I'd be right now only I had stayed
Reflecting on the uncertainty of the present, considering the impact of past decisions
I can't feel anything
Expressing a numbness or inability to feel anything emotionally
I can't feel anything
Reiteration of the emotional numbness, emphasizing the inability to feel
I can't feel anything
Continued expression of emotional numbness and detachment
I can't feel anything
Emphasizing the persistent inability to experience emotions
I can't feel anything (I can't feel anything)
Repetition of the theme of emotional numbness, suggesting a profound disconnect
I can't feel anything (I can't feel anything)
Continued emphasis on the lack of emotional sensation
I can't feel anything (I can't feel anything)
Reiteration of the ongoing struggle with emotional numbness
I can't feel anything
Repeating the sentiment of being unable to feel anything emotionally
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