Sorry the Very Next Day
Reflections of Growth: Understanding Regret and Forgiveness
Lyrics
When I was younger
Reflecting on the past when the speaker was younger
I used to wish you were out of my mind
Expressing a desire to forget or remove someone from thoughts
But now that I'm older
Acknowledging the passage of time
I think of you all the time
Now constantly thinking about the person previously wished to forget
I couldn't understand when I was small
Unable to comprehend certain actions during childhood
Cause you were strong and standing six-feet tall
Describing the person as strong and tall
Why your legs would crumble under you
Wondering why the person's legs gave way, causing a fall
And you'd fall
Describing a physical collapse
And I never could figure it out
Expressing confusion about the person's behavior
When you'd come home you'd scream and shout
Describing a tumultuous homecoming with yelling
I'd just turn my head and run
Recoiling from the conflict by turning away
Come back when you were done
Waiting until the storm of emotions subsides
Cry myself to sleep cursing your name
Experiencing emotional pain and resentment
And you were sorry when the next day came
Despite apologies, the cycle repeats the next day
I gathered my anger
Channeling anger into building emotional defenses
I built a wall no one could break through
Creating a barrier to protect against emotional vulnerability
Then I grew colder
Becoming emotionally distant, particularly towards the person
Made it especially hard for you
Making it challenging for the person to connect
I couldn't understand it if I tried
Expressing difficulty in understanding the person's struggles
You had so much honor, such pride
Acknowledging the person's honor and pride
How something was eating you up inside
Realizing the person was grappling with inner turmoil
And I know that it was wrong of me
Admitting fault for not trying to understand the person's struggles
How I never even tried to see
Regret for not empathizing with the person earlier
How you kicked the bottle for peace of mind
Learning about the person's effort to overcome addiction
Then all too late I found a friend in you
Forming a deep friendship too late
Did all the things that good friends do
Engaging in typical activities with the person
Worked together and talked about girls
Sharing common experiences and discussions
Talked of dreams and traveling the world
Discussing aspirations and dreams together
Then your life was taken away
Tragically losing the person
And I was sorry the very next day
Feeling regret and sorrow immediately after the loss
When I was younger
Reflecting on the past, similar to the first stanza
I used to wish you were out of my mind
Reiterating the desire to forget the person in youth
Now that I'm older
Re-emphasizing the constant thoughts about the person in maturity
I think of you all the time
Continued reflection on the enduring impact of the person
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