The Cycle
Embracing Life's Vicious Loop: "The Cycle" by Judah Kidd
Lyrics
I got up this morning half dead on my couch
I woke up feeling exhausted on my couch
This the routine that we set in the South
This routine is established in the Southern region
Meddling doubt I be letting it out
Dealing with doubt, expressing it
Ain't got a ounce there's a menacing drought
Don't have drugs; there's a serious shortage
So I refill with the Cody's still
Refilling with Cody's (codeine), still in need
Hold these pills let my nose re-heal
Holding pills, allowing my nose to heal from drug use
While I slowly peel down these eighteen's
Slowly driving with 18-inch rims
10 in the morning my intake clean
Intaking substances at 10 in the morning
MDMA what I been taking
Using MDMA, reaching out to my crew
So I call up my crew cause I know they keen
Asking friends if they are interested
Where you at mah co?
Checking their location
I'm at home my G gonna cash my dough then I'll roll round 3
Friend is at home, planning to cash money and join later
Yeah that's fine with me
Agreeing with the plan
Killin' anxiety
Dealing with anxiety through substances
living just tires me
Life is exhausting, so giving it up
So I give it entirely jack shit
Completely giving up on everything
Same as my missus don't need that bitch
Similar to my attitude towards my partner
But I need my fix so I'll be back quick
Need drugs despite not needing a relationship
Got a lot on my mind live and breath that shit
Obsessed with life's challenges
Numbing my pain with a trip
Numbing emotional pain with substances
Cover my brain with a tint
Masking thoughts with a substance-induced haze
This ain't no stint this is my life caught in the cycle
This is not a temporary phase; it's a continuous cycle
These are the moments that never go viral
Moments that don't become famous
Ain't no recital we doing this now
Not a performance, but a current reality
Liquor and drugs removing the clouds
Alcohol and drugs are clearing the mental fog
Over my head I'm refusing the help
Refusing help, feeling overwhelmed
Somebody buy me a funeral shroud
Expressing a desire for death
That's where I'm going I'm losing myself
Heading towards self-destruction
Abusing the body my usual health is suffering damage
Abusing the body, impacting health
Pain in my chest
Pain in the chest from substance abuse
I know I can manage a day then I'll rest
Believing in the ability to manage each day
Nothing to stress I'll be keeping the standard
No need to stress, maintaining a certain lifestyle
People around me but I'm feeling stranded
Feeling isolated despite being surrounded
Hold that life line one more life time I'm quite like this day till night its 365
Requesting a lifeline to continue this lifestyle
And I'm fine right here
Content with the current state
Think I might lie right here
Considering lying down
Probably gonna die right here
Expressing a fatalistic attitude
Spend a little time right here
Spending time in this state
That's the Cycle
Summarizing the recurring pattern
That's the motherfucking Cycle
Emphasizing the repetitive nature of the cycle
That's the Cycle
Reiterating the cyclical nature
That's the motherfucking Cycle
Repeating the message of the cycle
That's the Cycle
Stressing the ongoing nature of the cycle
That's the motherfucking Cycle
Reiterating the cyclical pattern
That's the Cycle
Emphasizing the repetitive cycle
That's the motherfucking Cycle
Repeating the assertion of the cyclical nature
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