Lyrics
I kinda wish you were temporary
Expressing a desire that the person causing trouble or burden would not be a permanent part of their life.
So I don't give you all my shit to carry
Wishing not to burden someone with their problems or emotional baggage.
And sometimes it all gets too loud
Feeling overwhelmed by the noise or chaos in life.
I'm glad that I'm just in the background
Content with being unnoticed or not at the forefront of attention.
I know you want to help me
Acknowledging the desire of the other person to assist, yet fearing that this may lead to resentment.
But you might just grow to hate me
Fearing that relying on the person might cause them to develop negative feelings towards the singer.
And I don't want to push you away
Not wanting to distance the person but acknowledging their freedom to leave if they wish.
But you know you don't have to stay
Assuring the person that they are not obligated to remain.
Cause you're watching me slowly break
Recognizing that the person is witnessing the gradual emotional breakdown.
But in time I'll just be a deadweight
Expecting to become a burden or excess weight emotionally.
I'll be a deadweight
Reiterating the feeling of becoming a heavy burden.
I'm thankful that you're there for me
Grateful for the support but finding it frightening to express emotions.
But letting it out is always scary
Expressing fear and vulnerability in opening up emotionally.
You pull me up but I weigh you down
Aware that relying on the person is causing them distress or hardship.
You should be happy even if I drown
Encouraging the person to prioritize their own happiness even if the singer is struggling.
I don't feel like myself
Feeling disconnected from their usual self.
Nothing really helps
Experiencing a lack of effective solutions or remedies.
I'm sorry i'm annoying
Apologizing for being bothersome or irritating.
But I just need something to help me feel
Expressing the need for something to provide a sense of being alive or connected.
To help me feel like I'm alive
Desiring something that makes them feel alive or real.
I know you want to help me
Similar to line 6, acknowledging the person's desire to assist but fearing negative consequences.
But you might just grow to hate me
Reiterating the fear of causing resentment or dislike in the person.
And I don't want to push you away
Not wanting to drive the person away but acknowledging their freedom to leave.
But you know you don't have to stay
Reassuring the person that they are not obliged to remain.
Cause you're watching me slowly break
Reiterating the observation of the person witnessing the singer's emotional decline.
But in time I'll just be a deadweight
Expecting to become a burden or excess weight emotionally over time.
I'll be a deadweight
Reiterating the feeling of becoming a heavy burden.
I'm too far gone, I can't be saved
Feeling beyond the point of being saved or helped.
So in time I'll just be a deadweight
Expecting to become a burden or excess weight emotionally over time (repeated).
I'll be a deadweight
Reiterating the feeling of becoming a heavy burden (repeated).
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