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I stay in bed for days on end
I isolate myself, spending extended periods in bed.
Wondering if I'm worth the trouble of being a friend
I question my value as a friend, wondering if it's worth the trouble.
Cause I just seem
I consistently exhibit certain behaviors.
To always say the same things
I repeatedly express the same things.
About all the times I'm embarrassing
I discuss embarrassing moments from my past.
And continue to talk
I continue to speak despite this.
In third person
I talk about myself in the third person.
You told me you were always so certain
You assured me of your certainty.
That I would never take the time to totally relax
You believed I would never fully relax.
I'll just waste my life on the relapse
I fear wasting my life on recurring setbacks.
I hate that it will always cross my mind
I dislike that certain thoughts always come to mind.
Tearing me apart at any given time
These thoughts emotionally distress me at any time.
As I sit in silence
I sit quietly, contemplating.
The feeling is overwhelming
The emotions are intense and overpowering.
I'll never be strong enough
I feel incapable of being a supportive figure.
To be the one who's helping
I can't find the strength to help others.
I hate that it will always cross my mind
Reiterating the distressing thoughts in my mind.
Tearing me apart at any given time
These thoughts continue to torment me.
And I surrender eternally for some reason
I give up perpetually for some unknown reason.
Cause I feel so lost with nothing to believe in
I feel lost with no beliefs to hold onto.
I wish I could fulfill it myself
I wish I could find fulfillment independently.
But the only thing I create is hell
Unfortunately, the only thing I create is misery.
A debby downer spliffany roach
Describing oneself negatively, possibly sarcastically.
That resents every line he should've never wrote
Regretting every line written, feeling resentment.
And tries to find meaning in his pathetic life
Attempting to find meaning in a seemingly pathetic life.
Letting all my fears keep me up at night
Fears and anxieties keep me awake at night.
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