Lyrics
Been thinking too much of how it feels to be a memory
Contemplating the experience of being remembered.
A painting of perfect; a portrait of comfort
Describing an idealized image, contrasting with personal inadequacy.
Something I couldn't ever be
Acknowledging an unattainable quality within oneself.
I've grown so tired of waiting to die
Expressing weariness in anticipating death.
How long until I'm erased and left behind?
Questioning the duration until being forgotten.
Coalescing tragedies broke me into defeat
Referencing overwhelming tragedies leading to defeat.
Left me alone with my apathy
Conveying isolation alongside emotional detachment.
I watched the colour drain from the world
Observing the world losing vibrancy and vitality.
Drowning in the grey, I became submerged
Metaphorically submerging into a state of bleakness.
The last four years I spent
Reflecting on the past four years filled with self-hatred.
Hating every part of myself
Expressing a deep dislike for every aspect of oneself.
Beneath the monument
Alluding to a monument symbolizing personal struggles.
I wish you'd left me for dead
Wishing for abandonment instead of enduring continued suffering.
I said it was an accident
Claiming a previous statement about a situation being accidental.
But if you knew just how I felt...
Hinting at undisclosed feelings and the desire for understanding.
And if you left so much unsaid...
Suggesting the existence of unspoken words and potential regrets.
Could you ever forgive yourself
Pondering the possibility of self-forgiveness in hindsight.
When you're looking back
Addressing retrospection and introspective examination.
And you reminisce
Encouraging reminiscence while implying a changed self.
Please just don't forget
Requesting not to forget a previous state of being.
I wasn't always like this
Affirming a transformation, acknowledging a prior state of normalcy.
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