Architect
Architect of Self-Destruction: A Journey of Internal Struggle
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I'm the architect
I am responsible for shaping and creating
Of my own demise
I am the cause of my own downfall
Think I might be self-destructive by design
I might have a tendency to harm myself intentionally
With every step I take
My actions are not planned; I go with the flow
I just improvise
I construct barriers to avoid facing reality
Only building up these walls to hide behind
I build emotional walls for protection
I don't know where to begin
I am uncertain about where to start
Think I need a new blueprint
I feel the need for a new plan or strategy
Lately everything is working against me
Recent events are working against me
Everybody's starting to hate me
People are beginning to dislike me
Or maybe I'm just good at driving myself crazy
I might be skilled at causing my own mental distress
Everything just seems like it's change
Everything around me appears to be in a state of flux
Nothing ever seems to save me
Nothing seems to offer salvation or relief
But maybe it's my fault
I acknowledge that I may be responsible for my troubles
What the hell can I expect when I'm the fucking architect
I shouldn't be surprised by negative outcomes as I am the one in control
I'm such a bother
I am a source of inconvenience to others
Not being hard on myself, just being honest
I am not being overly critical, just truthful about my impact
Treating my mental health with marijuana
I use marijuana to cope with my mental health issues
When I know damn well, it won't help
Despite knowing it won't be helpful
I don't know where to begin
I am uncertain about where to start (repeated)
Think I need a new blueprint
I feel the need for a new plan or strategy (repeated)
Lately everything is working against me
Recent events are working against me (repeated)
Everybody's starting to hate me
People are beginning to dislike me (repeated)
Or maybe I'm just good at driving myself crazy
I might be skilled at causing my own mental distress (repeated)
Everything just seems like it's change
Everything around me appears to be in a state of flux (repeated)
Nothing ever seems to save me
Nothing seems to offer salvation or relief (repeated)
But maybe it's my fault
I acknowledge that I may be responsible for my troubles (repeated)
What the hell can I expect when I'm the fucking architect
I shouldn't be surprised by negative outcomes as I am the one in control (repeated)
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