Lyrics
Yea, people tell me that they love me too much i'm not feeling it
Expressing a disconnect from the love people claim to feel for the speaker.
Took my heart and baited it threw it so I could reel it in
Describing a past experience where the speaker's heart was manipulated and used.
Time told me not to do it so I just went with it
Ignoring advice and going against what time suggests, possibly indicating a rebellious attitude.
Sickening to my stomach how nigga's is really living
Expressing disgust at the harsh realities of life that people are facing.
In this world it's just me and my family Im tryna get it with
Desiring success for oneself and family in a challenging world.
Momma told me stay in the house and I wasn't listening
Reflecting on not following parental advice and engaging in risky behavior.
Jumping fences and breaking in buildings
Recounting rebellious actions, like trespassing and breaking into buildings.
Im jealous of my friends who never had to struggle
Expressing envy for friends who didn't face the same struggles.
Cause none of them really give a shit
Commenting on the lack of empathy from those who didn't face similar hardships.
Sitting here waiting for Jesus to come and deal with it
Expressing a desire for divine intervention or justice in the face of difficulties.
I rally up my demons and greet him with my experience
Gathering inner strength to face challenges with personal experience.
If I knew what life meant I prolly would digress
Expressing uncertainty about the meaning of life.
With nothing to dissect
Reflecting on a lack of substantial things to analyze or understand.
I wanna be out cold
Expressing a desire for emotional numbness or detachment.
But nothing is worst waking up and your mind stressed
Highlighting the distressing nature of waking up with a stressed mind.
My brain is to complex
Describing the complexity of the speaker's brain.
My mind is a complex
Emphasizing the intricate nature of the speaker's mind.
Pressured for who I am but accepted for what I could be
Feeling pressured by societal expectations but hoping to be accepted for potential.
People looking down on me cause they know what I should be
Noticing judgment from others based on perceived potential rather than current reality.
Maybe I should tell them how I feel
Contemplating opening up about personal feelings and experiences.
Like a million fucking dollars getting scattered through the hills
Comparing personal feelings to a significant amount of wealth scattered.
I just listen to me speaking and my body getting chills
Experiencing a powerful emotional reaction while listening to oneself.
Blowing through my emotions
Expressing the release of emotions.
On the hills with the mills in the field getting kills no
Describing a dangerous environment with challenges and victories.
Shields on my body ain't nobody finna kill me
Asserting personal invincibility and resilience.
I close off myself before you ever get the real me
Guarding one's true self from others.
Does it matter to you that people feel one way or another to you?
Questioning the importance of others' opinions and feelings towards oneself.
I mean you have a kind of a reputation now
Addressing a divergence between public perception and true self.
It's a little bit apart from what you really are I think
Noting a dissonance between public image and personal reality.
Well um, I'm the loneliest soldier tryna keep my distance but soon ima lose my Composure
Identifying as the loneliest soldier, struggling to maintain emotional control.
I took my heart out of my chest and it got replaced with a motor
Symbolizing emotional detachment by replacing the heart with a motor.
It's no more feelings involved
Expressing a desire to be free from emotional burdens.
I'm tired of thinking it over
Feeling overwhelmed and exhausted from contemplating life.
It's not a day that Im sober
Stating a consistent struggle with sobriety.
My momma hate it but I think she understand so we pour up
Acknowledging the mother's dislike of the speaker's choices but understanding.
Not to many freinds I just got my self and this folder
Having few friends and finding solace in music and oneself.
Full of music I ain't dropped I should show it to Jov
Considering sharing unreleased music with someone named Jov.
Momma more happy than me she loved watching me grow up
Observing the mother's joy in witnessing the speaker's growth.
She let me leave out of the state and told me never to slow up
Recalling the mother's encouragement to pursue goals without slowing down.
So ima just keep doing me whether they like it or not
Determining to stay true to oneself despite others' opinions.
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