Loveless
Navigating Solitude: Mia Stegner's Loveless Reflections
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I feel like a housewife in a loveless marriage with myself
I feel a sense of emptiness, akin to a housewife in a loveless marriage, but this loneliness is within myself.
My inner child is a handful, my bookshelf
My inner child is challenging to handle, represented by my neglected bookshelf.
It is neglected, all the stories left unread
The stories in my life, symbolized by the books on the shelf, are left unread and overlooked.
And God I used to live so many lives
I used to live multiple lives, but now I feel disconnected.
Talking to the ghosts on my walk home
I communicate with memories and the past, possibly ghosts, during my walks home.
To the notes in my cellphone
I express myself through notes in my cellphone.
To myself, and I remind her that I like to be alone
I remind myself that I prefer solitude, emphasizing my inclination to be alone.
What kind of friend would I even be
Questioning the quality of my friendship and the person I want to be.
What kind of person would I wanna meet
Reflecting on my own happiness and the kind of person I aspire to meet.
Am I really happy on my own
Questioning if I am genuinely content when alone.
Do I really wanna throw away my phone
Contemplating whether I should disconnect from technology by discarding my phone.
I wonder if it's easier for me to let myself care
Considering if it's easier for me to care when the other person isn't fully present.
When the other person doesn't really wanna be there
Expressing fear in relationships and the difficulty in letting myself care.
'Cause I get scared
Admitting to feeling scared in relationships.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
Acknowledging a tendency to blame myself for everything.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
Admitting to consciously lying about making everything my fault.
Maybe it's all in my head, but the internet says
Questioning the validity of my feelings, influenced by information found on the internet.
ADHD hurts couples, for bisexuals the risk of abuse doubles
Highlighting challenges faced by individuals with ADHD and bisexuals in relationships.
My remaining instincts left with you, but am I lying through my teeth
Suggesting that my remaining instincts are gone, raising doubts about my honesty.
Am I lying through my teeth
Repeating the uncertainty about honesty in my statements.
'Cause I'm haunted by my shifting approach withdrawal
Expressing the haunting impact of my changing attitude and withdrawal in relationships.
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
Questioning if I will ever be willing to fully commit to a relationship.
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
Repeating the doubt about my willingness to fall in love.
And I'm at my happiest when I'm lonely as hell
Finding happiness in solitude despite feeling lonely.
I miss voices but my choice is to hide in the silence
Missing human connection but choosing silence as a coping mechanism.
It's too goddamn loud in my head when I don't leave my bed
Describing the overwhelming noise in my head when I stay in bed, avoiding the outside world.
But I need the peace and I can't take any other kinda noise
Expressing a need for peace and an aversion to other kinds of noise.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
Reiterating the tendency to make everything my fault.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
Acknowledging the conscious act of lying about taking blame for everything.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
Repeating the pattern of trying to make everything my fault.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
Repeating the acknowledgment of lying about taking fault for everything.
History is bound to be repeated and I'm terrified
Expressing fear about the repetition of history and the terror it brings.
'Cause when I said I never wanna try again I think I lied
Admitting that the statement of never wanting to try again might be untrue.
I think I, I think I lied
Acknowledging the possibility of lying about not wanting to try again.
I think I, I think I lie
Repeating the acknowledgment of potentially lying about not wanting to try again.
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