Beholder
Lost Sanity: Michael Seuss Unravels Life's Twisted Symphony
Lyrics
I lost my deal and my sanity
Experiencing loss of a significant deal and mental stability.
Deprived in thought, even I can't handle me
Struggling with deprived thoughts, finding it challenging to cope with oneself.
Speaking in tongues, love died away
Using metaphorical language to express the decline of love, possibly due to a destructive force.
From a plague, we uphold just to drown, left astray
Engaging in harmful behaviors, metaphorically drowning and feeling abandoned.
Basically dead, I can feel the laughter
Feeling emotionally numb and detached, marked by a sense of laughter that lacks genuine joy.
Trembling from solitude the walls are closing faster
Experiencing increasing isolation, symbolized by closing walls causing anxiety.
Winding down, my tears turn to ash
Tears turning to ash, expressing a sense of emotional desolation.
While they play with their mortality
Observing others playing with their mortality, possibly engaging in risky or destructive behavior.
Drinking from my stash
Others taking advantage, possibly metaphorically "drinking" from the speaker's resources or life.
Bringing it back, her thoughts were evil
Reflecting on past actions with regret, particularly related to someone with sinister intentions.
See through, to calm me she lied, and now we're equals
Discovering deception in a relationship, leading to a sense of equality through shared pain.
Menacing the thoughts we uphold, through the needle
Menacing thoughts persisting, possibly related to drug use ("needle").
To play that twisted song, but the sounds appears regal
Creating unsettling music, finding a strange beauty in the disturbing sounds.
Portraying light in shadow, abomination
Portraying light in darkness, embracing the abnormal as a form of self-expression.
Hypocrisy is set aside instead as confirmation
Setting aside hypocrisy in favor of confirmation, possibly embracing one's true nature.
Pieced together slowly, and our minds are wove with nails
Building resilience slowly, with minds interconnected through pain and suffering.
But instead of using twine, bound together by our tales
Using shared experiences to bind people together, choosing tales over conventional bonds.
A time in life, I'm rewinding it back
Nostalgically revisiting a past period in life.
Listen to my words, pop back, I'm handling tracks
Requesting attention to spoken words, emphasizing control over musical tracks.
A desperado with the Wind to my back
Identifying as a daring individual facing challenges with determination.
Riding through the world with ease, leaving nothing intact
Conquering the world effortlessly but leaving destruction in one's wake.
Don't mind if I do
Expressing willingness to engage in certain actions.
Don't mind if I don't
Expressing indifference or reluctance towards certain actions.
Hope you leave an open lane
Encouraging others to create opportunities for communication or connection.
Subject to change
Acknowledging a willingness to adapt or change.
Mindset is bonified
Asserting a strong and genuine mindset.
Stone cold killer
Describing oneself as emotionally detached and unfeeling, likening oneself to a killer.
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