another birthday
Unmasking Loneliness: Mikayla Sippel's Reflection on Birthdays
Lyrics
No I don't want another birthday
No desire for another birthday.
When all these fake people call and they say
Dislike for insincere people who reach out.
"I'm so glad that you're here, we all love you my dear"
Mocking well-wishes, questioning their sincerity.
But the world wouldn't change if I'd just disappear
Feeling insignificant, doubting impact on the world.
No I don't want another birthday
Reiteration of not wanting another birthday.
When I blow out all the candles and they say
Displeasure when making a wish, as emptiness persists.
"Make a wish, make it bright, our little star in the night"
Highlighting the artificial brightness of the wish.
Cause again this time I still feel empty inside
Despite celebrations, inner emptiness prevails.
So let's get on with it
Expressing a desire to move forward.
I'm overthinking again
Admission of overthinking.
Sing away the same old tune
Singing about mundane routines and loneliness.
Nobody wants to do
Rejecting societal expectations.
And it'll all be over soon, over soon
Acknowledging the temporary nature of struggles.
So, come on get on with it
Encouraging moving forward despite distance.
I'm a thousand miles away
Physical and emotional distance.
As my soul begins to break
Soul breaking despite external smiles.
I smile for the show but nobody knows
Masking true feelings for the sake of a show.
I feel the most alone, in this room of people
Feeling alone in a crowd.
No I don't want another birthday
Repetition of not wanting another birthday.
When everyone blows up my phone and they all say
Being overwhelmed by messages but missing a significant one.
"Hope your day's full of cheer and you don't shed a tear"
Sarcastically emphasizing a lack of genuine concern.
But not once did you call me in the last year
Highlighting the absence of a crucial connection.
No I don't want another birthday
Rejection of superficial advice.
Stop saying to "smile more, be happy" you don't say?
Disapproval of simplistic solutions.
Like I haven't tried that are you even hearing yourself?
Challenging others to introspect.
Maybe you should get help
Recognizing frustration with constant explanations.
I'm sick of explaining myself
So let's get on with it
Reiteration of the desire to move forward.
I'm overthinking again
Continuation of overthinking struggles.
Sing away the same old tune
Resignation to singing familiar, unfulfilling songs.
Nobody wants to do
Expressing reluctance towards societal expectations.
And it'll all be over soon, over soon
Recognition of the transient nature of difficulties.
So, come on get on with it
Encouraging to move forward despite challenges.
I'm a thousand miles away
Emphasizing physical and emotional distance.
As my soul begins to break
Internal struggle despite outward composure.
I smile for the show but nobody knows
Maintaining a facade of happiness.
I feel the most alone, in this room of people
Feeling isolated within a group.
I'm tired of saying I'm okay
Fatigue from pretending to be okay.
And I'm tired of hating myself everyday
Tired of self-loathing and daily struggles.
Like man, it's getting so old
Expressing frustration with prolonged internal battles.
When will I find control
Yearning for control over personal struggles.
Of this girl I don't know
Feeling disconnected from one's own identity.
She's unrecognisable
Identity crisis, feeling unrecognizable.
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