Lyrics
I'm not in a state of despair
I am not in a state of despair.
Nothing seems to fit my mind
Nothing seems to align with my thoughts.
And although I can't be there
Even though I can't physically be present, I know there's a place for someone like me.
I still know that there's a place for someone
There's a space or role for individuals similar to myself.
Just like me
Reiterating the idea that there's a place for someone with the speaker's characteristics.
Now will I ever wake up
Questioning if the speaker will ever become aware of their situation.
Wake up to see the box I'm in
Reflecting on the confined situation the speaker is in.
And will I ever stand up
Wondering if the speaker will ever overcome the current predicament.
I'm standing on the edge of inability
The speaker is on the verge of incapability or powerlessness.
And though I'm trying it still penetrates my body
Despite efforts, a negative influence continues to affect the speaker.
All these demons that I carry deep inside
Acknowledging internal struggles and challenges.
The changing faces forces me to leave the traces
The speaker is forced to leave evidence or marks of difficult experiences.
Of the stranger things that are growing in my mind
Referring to unsettling thoughts growing in the speaker's mind.
Oh I know that I have
Acknowledging past experiences of facing similar challenges.
Done this once or twice before
Previous encounters with challenges are still unclear or vague.
The names are still a blur
The names associated with past challenges remain indistinct.
I'm arrogantly close to falling of the edge
The speaker is dangerously close to succumbing to pressure or difficulties.
I know I'm not insane
Asserting sanity despite inner turmoil and mental distress.
Though my head hurts on the inside
Experiencing internal pain despite external composure.
The images disturb me
Disturbing mental images affect the speaker.
I know I'm not insane, I'm not what they call me
Reaffirming sanity and rejecting negative labels assigned by others.
They're no good, still surrounding me
Negative influences persistently surround the speaker.
Forcing my actions upon me
External forces impose actions on the speaker.
The blood just paint my world
Blood symbolically paints the speaker's world.
They're no good, still surrounding me
Negative influences continue to impact the speaker.
Forcing my actions upon me
External forces dictate the speaker's actions.
They're forcing my actions upon my deathbox
External forces control the speaker's actions leading to their 'deathbox.'
And though I'm trying it still penetrates my body
Despite efforts, negative influences persist in affecting the speaker.
All these demons that I carry deep inside
Reiteration of inner struggles and demons carried by the speaker.
The changing faces force me to leave the traces
Changing circumstances compel the speaker to leave evidence of their challenges.
Of the stranger things that's growing in my mind
Reflecting on unsettling thoughts growing in the speaker's mind.
Now will I ever wake up
Questioning if the speaker will ever become aware of their situation.
Wake up to see the box I'm in
Reflecting on the confined situation the speaker is in.
And will I ever stand up
Wondering if the speaker will ever overcome the current predicament.
I'm standing on the edge of inability
The speaker is on the verge of incapability or powerlessness.
Now is this a failure
Pondering whether the current state is a failure.
My project kill is right awake
The speaker's project or ambition is fully alert or active.
I'm all burned out from pressure
Feeling exhausted and burnt out due to external pressures.
My thoughts have brought me to my knees
The speaker's thoughts have led them to a state of vulnerability.
Awake in pain
Acknowledging painful wakefulness.
They're no good, still surrounding me
Negative influences persistently surround the speaker.
Forcing my actions upon me
External forces impose actions on the speaker.
The blood just paints my world
Blood symbolically paints the speaker's world.
They're no good, still surrounding me
Negative influences continue to impact the speaker.
Forcing my actions upon me
External forces dictate the speaker's actions.
They're forcing my actions upon my deathbox
External forces control the speaker's actions leading to their 'deathbox.'</
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