SOMETIMES I SCARE MYSELF TO DEATH
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Sometimes I scare myself to death
Feeling intense fear that causes extreme distress.
When all these thoughts rush through my head
Experiencing a rush of overwhelming thoughts.
And all I feel are my regrets
Being consumed by feelings of remorse or sorrow.
And they play over and over
Repetitive memories of past regrets.
Sometimes I scare myself to death
Reiterating the fear-induced distress.
When I talk myself off that ledge
Talking oneself out of a dangerous situation or mental state.
Replaying every word I said
Reliving and analyzing past words spoken.
When I'm alone and I'm sober
Experiencing these emotions when alone and sober.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm done
Questioning whether life's challenges are insurmountable.
It all goes away when it's over
Feeling that problems dissipate at the end.
And all the thing that I once loved
Lamenting the loss of past joys in the future.
Won't be here again when I'm older
Fearing the absence of once-cherished things later in life.
Even when I'm down I still think about us
Reflecting on a past relationship despite feeling low.
When everyone I know tells me that you're so wrong
Conflict between personal feelings and others' opinions.
I wanna just lie and think about lust
Desire to indulge in fleeting pleasures amidst turmoil.
But when it's my turn I'll be dead before dawn
Acceptance of potential demise before dawn.
Way too far from down
Feeling distant from a better mental state.
And I don't wanna be alone
Resisting the idea of being alone.
Stay one time around
Desiring more time in life.
I know that this is not enough'
Recognizing that the current situation is insufficient.
Sometimes I scare myself to death
Reiteration of experiencing intense fear.
When all these thoughts rush through my head
Revisiting the rush of overwhelming thoughts and regrets.
And all I feel are my regrets
Continued feelings of remorse and sorrow.
And they play over and over
Recurring memories of past regrets.
Sometimes I scare myself to death
Reiterating the fear-induced distress.
When I talk myself off that ledge
Talking oneself out of a dangerous situation or mental state.
Replaying every word I said
Reliving and analyzing past words spoken.
When I'm alone and I'm sober
Experiencing these emotions when alone and sober.
Sometimes I think that I might not mind
Contemplating the possibility of not minding eternal sleep.
If I go to sleep and don't wake up again
Feeling that something inside doesn't feel right.
Something that's deep inside don't feel right
Being hesitant to open up due to shame.
And I'm too ashamed to let somebody in
Gratitude for someone's presence and support.
But you stayed here with me
Providing a sense of stability in turbulent times.
And you gave me a place
Fear of being on the verge of giving up everything.
To hold on when I'm feeling like drifting away
Reiterating the fear-induced distress.
And it's scary to me
Recognizing mental vulnerability and fragility.
When my mind's in a place
Being on the brink of making drastic decisions.
Where I'm moments from throwing it all away
Experiencing overwhelming thoughts of regrets.
Sometimes I scare myself to death
Reiteration of intense fear causing distress.
When all these thoughts rush through my head
Experiencing a rush of overwhelming thoughts.
And all I feel are my regrets
Being consumed by feelings of remorse or sorrow.
And they play over and over
Repetitive memories of past regrets.
Sometimes I scare myself to death
Reiterating the fear-induced distress.
When I talk myself off that ledge
Talking oneself out of a dangerous situation or mental state.
Replaying every word I said
Reliving and analyzing past words spoken.
When I'm alone and I'm sober
Experiencing these emotions when alone and sober.
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