Trauma
Navigating Life's Trauma: A Poignant Reflection
Lyrics
I been up all night with this KelTec by my side
I have been awake all night with my KelTec firearm by my side.
These demons in my head, saying I might die tonight
I'm struggling with thoughts in my head that suggest I might face death tonight.
I'm so paranoid cause I done seen the realest die
I feel paranoid because I have witnessed genuine individuals lose their lives.
Gotta whole lotta trauma, yeah, plaguing my mind
I carry a significant amount of trauma that constantly occupies my thoughts.
Lotta times I can't decide
Many times, I find it challenging to make decisions.
If I'm wrong or right
I struggle to determine whether my actions are right or wrong.
I been struggling to figure out how to live my life
I have been trying to figure out how to live my life.
My mama said she wondering if I'll be alright
My mother expresses concern about whether I will be okay.
Listen to me mom I'll be just fine
I reassure my mom that I will be fine.
Sometimes
Sometimes.
Sometimes
-I start to realize
I start to recognize and understand.
I see the signs
I perceive the signs around me.
Everything might be alright
Things might be okay.
Maybe I'm just way too high
Perhaps I am just too high (emotionally or literally).
But it's how I cope with all this time passing by
Coping with the passage of time through substances.
I been up all night with this KelTec by my side
I continue to be awake with my KelTec firearm.
These demons in my head, saying I might die tonight
The demons in my mind persist, suggesting the possibility of death tonight.
I'm so paranoid cause I done seen the realest die
Paranoia lingers due to the loss of genuine individuals.
Gotta whole lotta trauma, yeah, plaguing my mind
The trauma I carry continues to plague my thoughts.
Lost my bro lost my uncle, so I been praying for my guys
I've lost both my brother and uncle, so I pray for my close associates.
I Know this shit get hectic, couple times I almost died
I acknowledge the chaos in life, and there have been moments where I almost lost my life.
I know this world so evil, but who am I to say that right
I recognize the world's malevolence, but I question my authority to make such judgments.
I know I'm doing wrong all the fucking time
I am aware of my continual wrongdoing.
Lost in this abyss of sin, I'm so paralyzed
I feel trapped in a state of sin, paralyzed by its effects.
Fighting with myself yeah, demons on my mind
Internal struggles persist, with demons occupying my thoughts.
That's the only competition, I got up in this life
My only competition in life is the battle with myself and the demons within.
I don't know where I'll go, if I lose my soul tonight
If I lose my soul tonight, I don't know where I'll end up.
I don't know where I'll go, even if I'm alright
Even if things seem okay, the destination remains uncertain.
All I know is keep pushing forward
All I know is to keep moving forward despite the challenges.
I could see the signs
I recognize the signs around me.
I just hope they're here to lead me right
I hope these signs guide me in the right direction.
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