Lyrics
For a minute I've been feeling like I really don't belong
Expressing a sense of not fitting in or belonging.
Feeling lonelier than ever friends don't ever hit my phone
Feeling isolated, with friends not reaching out.
As of late, it's been a chore to even wake up every day
Struggling to find motivation to wake up daily.
Can't feel happy for myself because everything just feel the same
Unable to find joy in personal achievements.
I've been struggling and hoping for a healthy way to cope
Seeking healthy coping mechanisms but resorting to excuses.
But all I do is make excuses so my ass can stay afloat
Difficulty in facing challenges and relying on excuses.
Tossing turning in my bed because when it's late I barely sleep
Insomnia and restlessness during late hours.
And even in these fucking dreams I just can't seem to find relief
Dreams don't provide relief, adding to the struggle.
All my homies ride or die but I don't feel the same way
Feeling disconnected from close friends' loyalty.
I can't stand to be alone
Disliking solitude but pushing away those close.
Yet those close get pushed away
Struggling with maintaining close relationships.
Feel I barely know my friends
Uncertainty about understanding friends deeply.
Just got hatred for myself
Harboring self-hatred, impacting relationships.
It's the same old fucking shit that's taxing on my mental health
Repetitive challenges affecting mental health.
All my days and nights is blending and depression's creeping up
Blur between day and night, depression intensifying.
Can't tell momma or my brother cuz this shit would tear them up
Keeping personal struggles hidden from family.
Need to look out for my family because pops is in the grave
Responsibility to support family due to father's absence.
Do my best to show that I can be the son my father raised
Striving to be the son his father would be proud of.
I head downtown
Physical movement, possibly a change in environment.
Hop up in the whip
Getting into a vehicle, a metaphorical journey.
Leave all in past tense
Leaving the past behind, moving forward.
I remember days in the desert
Recalling difficult times in the past.
We ain't have shit
Reflecting on a period of lack and hardship.
Now you gone
The absence of someone significant changes everything.
Nothing feels the same
Profound impact and emotional weight of a loss.
This loss so tragic
Describing the tragic nature of the mentioned loss.
Since 6313 you been my idol
Acknowledging an idol since a specific time.
And one I miss
Expressing missing the mentioned person.
A Grimes bitch
Reference to a significant person, possibly a nickname.
I rep to the grave
Remaining loyal to a cause or memory.
We shine like diamonds
Symbolic representation of enduring strength.
I know I'm finna make it out this hell that I'm confined in
Confident about overcoming current challenges.
Realest nigga bumping out this southwest climate
Claiming authenticity in a specific geographical setting.
Mane ever since the start the goals the same
Consistency in pursuing goals since the beginning.
There ain't no options
Feeling limited with no alternative choices.
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