Lyrics
It's been 42 days since I left home
Reflecting on the duration since leaving home, 42 days ago.
Now I pace around this room
Restlessly moving within a room, possibly due to internal conflict.
Contemplate where the line is drawn
Considering the boundaries or limits in relationships.
Switch up, next day she'll be gone
Anticipating a quick change in circumstances, suggesting instability.
Another run away, lost time, drop her clothes in front of me
Describing a situation where someone leaves suddenly, leaving an impact.
Swipe right, crashed my car, this fantasy
Referencing a negative consequence (crashing a car) resulting from a fantasy.
Isn't what it's supposed to be
Expressing dissatisfaction with the disparity between expectation and reality.
You scream: what the fuck is wrong with me
Quoting someone expressing frustration and self-awareness of issues.
Shallow, these words I write I can't swallow
Acknowledging the superficiality of the words being written.
These pills I take bury a lot of, my problems
Using pills to escape or numb the problems being faced.
Wasting time cause I can't solve them
Expressing a sense of helplessness in solving personal problems.
Take your promises with you cause I don't feel anything at all
Rejecting promises as they bring no emotional response.
Save your words about me too
Declining to accept words or comments about oneself.
I'll take back every right I've wronged
Expressing a desire to undo past mistakes and make amends.
So long and always, I'll be dead to you
Declaring a detachment and emotional distance from the other person.
Love sick, chasing after something
Describing a state of longing for love but finding nothing.
Reaching, finding nothing
Attempting to reach or achieve something but facing disappointment.
I'm unimpressed
Expressing a lack of interest or enthusiasm.
Wanna break my heart
Facing the possibility of heartbreak.
I'll wear a bulletproof vest
Symbolically protecting oneself from emotional harm.
Wanna break my heart
Reiterating the readiness to endure emotional pain.
Wanna see me bleed
Invoking imagery of emotional vulnerability and pain.
When I tried so hard to be what you need
Expressing frustration at failing to meet someone's expectations.
Take your promises with you cause I don't feel anything at all
Repeating the rejection of emotionally empty promises.
Save your words about me too
Reiterating the dismissal of comments or opinions about oneself.
I'll take back every right I've wronged
Reaffirming the desire to correct past mistakes.
So long and always, I'll be dead to you
Declaring a permanent emotional distance from the other person.
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