The Love I've Learned
Embracing Resilience: Unveiling the Depths of The Love I've Learned
Lyrics
I remember lying in my bed
Recollection of being in bed.
Wishing I could will myself to be dead
Expressing a desire for death.
Separate connection of brain and heart
Feeling emotionally disconnected from rational thought.
Choose my own way to fall apart
Choosing a personal way to experience a breakdown.
Get back some feeling of control
Attempting to regain control over emotions or situations.
Looks like an accident to save my soul
Seeming accidental actions to preserve one's soul.
Avoid the selfish look of suicide
Avoiding the appearance of selfishness associated with suicide.
Keep my reputation alive
Preserving one's reputation despite internal struggles.
And though it's just a memory
Reflecting on a memory that becomes a part of the self.
I keep what becomes a part of me
Internalizing a past experience as a benchmark.
Benchmark the lowest that I could find
Identifying the lowest point to gauge the distance from past highs.
How far to fall from these highs
Contemplating the extent of a potential downfall from previous highs.
And when that feeling is coming again
Anticipating the return of a familiar feeling.
Moreso a wonderance on the whispering wind
Viewing feelings as ethereal, akin to whispers on the wind.
When I am breathless I fear a return
Fearing a recurrence of breathlessness, symbolizing anxiety.
But most ignored by the love I've learned
Feeling disregarded by the love learned.
Oh what am I to you
Questioning one's significance to another.
Can you see what I do
Seeking validation or acknowledgment for actions.
To help forgive and help forget
Desiring help in forgiving and forgetting.
The thoughts I leave behind
Concern about the thoughts left behind.
When they'll go
Uncertainty about the departure of thoughts or feelings.
I don't know
Admitting a lack of knowledge regarding departure.
It's hard to look ahead
Struggling to focus on the future due to past preoccupation.
When the past is on your mind
Feeling haunted by past events or memories.
You can always regret
Constantly regretting unfulfilled hopes or desires.
What you were hoping to find
The difficulty in finding what was hoped for.
That I can't let go and I can't hold on
Feeling stuck between holding on and letting go.
I'm stuck somewhere between
An internal conflict between opposing actions.
When I know
Emphasizing certainty about a specific situation.
I know
Reiterating certainty or knowledge.
It's not you
Recognizing personal ownership of issues or emotions.
That belongs to me
Indicating an internal dilemma about what to do.
What to do
Reflecting on the aftermath of a relationship.
Now we're through
Acknowledging the end of a relationship.
But I know
Asserting confidence in eventual well-being.
I know
Reiterating assurance of personal resilience.
I'll be alright
Expressing optimism about future recovery.
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