Autopilot
Navigating the Turbulence of Self-Deception: Autopilot by Signs of Progress
Lyrics
We play these games
We engage in these activities or interactions
My life in puzzle pieces
My life feels fragmented and incomplete
That I myself can’t put together
I cannot personally assemble or resolve them
Make it better
Attempt to improve or enhance the situation
I’m so ashamed
I feel deep regret or guilt
Incertitude increasing
Uncertainty is growing or becoming more pronounced
Hope this feeling won’t last forever
Hoping this emotion won't persist indefinitely
Now or never
Present moment is critical or urgent
And you tell them that it’s fine
You reassure others that everything is okay
That you did it by design
Implying intentional planning or control
The line’s all crooked now
The situation or path has become distorted
You’ve been caught in the act
Being caught in an act of deceit or wrongdoing
Now it’s time to face the facts
Time to confront and accept reality
Can someone show me how
Seeking guidance or assistance from someone
En route to absent islands
Heading towards nonexistent destinations
I can’t say a word
Unable to articulate or express
Another day in silence
Days passing without being heard or acknowledged
Seen but never heard
Being observed but not listened to
The tides cause me to tilt
Emotional shifts causing instability
Wash away all of my guilt
Desire for guilt to be washed away
In the distance I detect a siren
Noticing a warning or impending danger
But I’m stuck on autopilot
Feeling trapped in a routine or pattern without control
I’m stuck on autopilot
-Like crashing cars
Instances of collision or conflict reminiscent of crashing cars
two worlds collide at high gear
Different worlds or perspectives clashing intensely
My stigma is your magnum opus
My negative image is your masterpiece
I’m the lowest
Feeling of being at the bottom or the least valued
Behind these bars
Feeling confined or restrained, possibly emotionally
The answer seeming so clear
Understanding appears evident but unattainable
Yet unattainable it’s hopeless
Struggling to maintain concentration or direction
Losing focus
Beginning to lose clarity or direction
Fool me once shame on you
Being deceived once by someone else
Tried to trick you but you know the truth
Attempted deceit but truth is known
Fool me twice shame on me
Self-blame for being deceived a second time
But the truth will only set me free
Only truth can offer liberation
And as I warm up for round three
Preparing for another encounter with deception
Deception in the first degree
Deception at the highest level
I’m shot down and lost at sea
Feeling defeated and aimless
Want to surface but I dove too deep
Wanting to emerge but too deeply involved in problems
Frozen in time trying to fix this mess
Feeling stuck in time trying to mend mistakes
Every inch of my brain’s in recess
Mental capabilities temporarily disabled
The only way to wake me is to drown all the wrongs I’ve done
Only through rectifying wrongs can awakening occur
En route to absent islands
Reiteration of being unable to speak
I can’t say a word
-Another day in silence
Continued days of being unnoticed
Seen but never heard
Seen but not acknowledged vocally
The tides cause me to tilt
Emotional turmoil leading to instability
Wash away all of my guilt
Desire for guilt to be cleansed or absolved
In the distance I detect a siren
Sensing a warning or impending danger from afar
But I’m stuck on autopilot
Continued feeling of being stuck without control
I’m stuck on autopilot
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