Lyrics
And so it goes, I'm playing it over and over I still don't get it
Reflecting on a situation, repeatedly trying to understand without success.
Til now I spose, losing friends was careless but with you somehow I meant it
Acknowledging the seriousness of losing friends, particularly feeling a genuine impact in this case.
Last words on your birthday, you left me with a whatever
Recalling a nonchalant farewell on the speaker's birthday, left with indifference.
Should we have made a scene about it, stalemate early December
Questioning whether making a fuss about the situation would have changed the outcome in early December.
Trying to sort my life out in the shower again
Contemplating life during a routine activity like taking a shower.
The way I miss you kills me more than missing them
Expressing the emotional pain of missing someone more than missing others.
Why do I keep dreaming, that we reconciled
Wondering about recurring dreams where reconciliation with the person occurs.
I woke up crying, it wasn't true last night
Experiencing emotional distress upon waking up and realizing the dream was false.
You left me obsessing over everything
Feeling consumed by thoughts and fixation on details after the departure.
And now I'm a mess again
Returning to a state of emotional turmoil.
And I'm not pretending to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things
Acknowledging regrets and not pretending to forget past mistakes.
And I feel heavy
Expressing a sense of emotional weight or burden.
And I feel heavy
Repeating the feeling of heaviness for emphasis.
Spent time alone, cos you made me feel I would only ever let you down
Choosing solitude due to a fear of disappointing the person.
I shoulda known, why is it that am I only seeing the bigger picture now
Realizing the significance of a situation only after it has passed.
Your cards weren't on the table, would I indulge you forever
Questioning if enduring bad behavior was worth it, given that the person's intentions were unclear.
I wish that I'd have been less grateful, to put up with such bad behaviour
Expressing regret for being too accommodating in the past.
Trying to sort my life out in the shower again
Returning to the introspective process during a mundane activity.
Nauseous when your mentioned by our mutual friends
Feeling sick at the mention of the person by mutual friends.
Can't blame that I am breaking down on lust again
Attributing emotional breakdown to desire rather than external factors.
The way I miss you kills me more than missing them
Reiterating the emotional impact of missing the person.
Why do I keep dreaming, that we reconciled
Repeating the dream theme, questioning the significance of the recurring reconciliation dream.
I woke up crying, it wasn't true last night
Describing the emotional aftermath of a false dream.
You left me obsessing over everything
Continuing to obsess over the details of the past.
And now I'm a mess again
Experiencing a return to emotional chaos.
And I'm not pretending to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things
Acknowledging ongoing regrets without pretending to move on.
And I feel heavy
Repeating the feeling of heaviness as a persistent emotional state.
And I feel heavy
Reiterating the prolonged emotional burden.
Yeah you left me obsessing over everything
Repeating the theme of obsessing over details.
You're just a silhouette of a friend
Describing the person as a mere silhouette of a friend, suggesting a diminished connection.
And I'm on cigarettes again
Resorting to cigarettes as a coping mechanism.
And I confess I hope you haven't found somebody to replace me since Amsterdam
Expressing a hope that the person hasn't found a replacement since the time in Amsterdam.
And I feel heavy
Reiterating the persistent feeling of heaviness.
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