CIRCUS
Finding Light in the Shadows: Skinnyfabs' Journey through Despair
Lyrics
I wake up everyday
I start each day.
I'm feelin' empty, feelin' all grey
I feel a sense of emptiness and sadness.
My psychiatrist keeps sayin'
My therapist consistently says,
""Everything is gonna be okay""
"Everything will be fine."
I talked to my friends
I share my feelings with my friends.
They asked me, ""What happened with you?""
They inquire about the cause of my distress.
Sure, lemme tell you that
I am willing to share my experiences.
And what the fuck I've been through, sing
Expressing frustration about my difficult experiences, I sing.
Long, long ago, I was no one, I wasn't this messed
In the distant past, I was nobody, not in this troubled state.
And, no, no dont know, I dont know how could I be so depressed
I don't understand how I became so depressed.
'Cause people always tell me, ""You should stop being unhappy""
People advise me to stop being unhappy.
Goddamit, how the hell is that supposed to help me?
I question the effectiveness of such advice in helping me.
In other hand, I've never wanted to confess that I'm sad
I've never wanted to admit that I'm sad.
'Cause I'm a clown and my job is to make people happy, you know that
Being a clown, my role is to bring joy to others.
I like to laugh, I like to make people laugh
I enjoy making people laugh.
But the problem is why I cannot do that to myself
However, I struggle to do the same for myself.
All these feelings I consider as a time bomb cause it
My emotions are like a time bomb, worsening over time.
(Gets worse)
The situation gets worse.
Every day I have to make lies sure it ain't right
Every day, I have to fabricate falsehoods, knowing it's not right.
Better than die, or should I?
Contemplating whether it's better to endure or consider something drastic.
Shit, I'm done, trying so hard not to give a fuck
I'm tired, struggling not to care, but I still want to have fun.
But I want to have fun
Similar to many, I desire a normal, enjoyable life.
Like a lot of people, like a normal people
I've never wanted to admit that I'm sad.
In other hand, I've never wanted to confess that I'm sad
Being a clown, my role is to bring joy to others.
'Cause I'm a clown and my job is to make people happy, you know that
I enjoy making people laugh.
I like to laugh, I like to make people laugh
However, I struggle to do the same for myself.
But the problem is why I cannot do that to myself
So, I start each day.
So I wake up everyday
Feeling better, not in a state of sadness.
I'm feelin' better, feelin' not grey
My therapist reassures me.
My psychiatrist is saying
"Everything is finally okay."
""Everything is finally okay""
I inform my friends that I'm no longer sad.
I told all my friends I said
They believe my statement.
""I'm no longer feelin' blue""
Despite telling them I'm fine, I may still be struggling.
And they believe it
My friends are unaware that my claim is untrue.
They don't know it's a lie, they have no clue
They remain oblivious to the falsehood, having no idea.
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