i should've known
Unveiling the Bittersweet Journey of Heartache and Deception
Lyrics
Propped you up on a pedestal
Placing you in high regard, idealizing you
So if you ever hurt me
Fearing potential hurt from you
I wouldn't know
Unaware if you caused pain due to idealization
You seemed to know so much
You appeared knowledgeable and experienced
Only a few years more
Only a few years older
But that was enough
Those few years were enough for a deep connection
For me to completely fall
Falling deeply in love
Followed you around
Following you devotedly
Like a lost dog in need of a home
Yearning for a place in your life
You weren't offering a place to stay
You didn't offer the emotional support needed
Oh I should've known
Regretting not realizing the signs
Enjoyed attention
Enjoying the attention given by you
Used it till everything I had was gone
Exploiting attention until depleted
Then moved on like it was nothing at all
Leaving without emotional attachment
When you weren't around
Feeling lost and empty when you're absent
Can't believe I waited by the phone
Waiting for your presence, clinging to hope
Convinced myself you missed me
Self-deception, convincing oneself of your affection
God I was just skin and bone
Becoming emotionally and physically drained
Played it all over
Replaying scenarios in search of answers
As if I'd find something new
Seeking something new but finding familiarity
But it always came back to me
Cycling back to the same emotional state
Following you around
Continuing to follow despite emotional neglect
Like a lost dog in need of a home
Longing for a place in your life
You weren't offering a place to stay
No offer of emotional refuge
Oh I should've known
Regret for not realizing the situation earlier
Enjoyed attention
Enjoying attention but depleting personal resources
Used it till everything I had was gone
Leaving without emotional ties, indifferent
Then moved on like it was nothing at
Treating the past as inconsequential
Every corner somethings still yours
Remnants of the past still linger
Hoping always makes it worse
Hoping exacerbates emotional pain
Followed you around
Continuing to follow, seeking belonging
Like a lost dog in need of a home
Longing for a place in your life
You weren't offering a place to stay
No emotional refuge provided
Oh I should've known
Regret for not realizing the situation earlier
Enjoyed attention
Enjoying attention but depleting personal resources
Used it till everything I had was gone
Leaving without emotional ties, indifferent
Then moved on like it was nothing at all
Treating the past as inconsequential
Oh I should've known
Regret for not realizing the situation earlier
There was nothing at all
Realizing there was nothing substantial
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