Lyrics
It's been hard at times
Expressing the difficulty experienced
But I promise I will try to tell you everything that's going on inside my mind
Commitment to sharing inner thoughts despite challenges
I barely feel alive
Sense of being disconnected from life
But one day I'll surprise everyone by either making it or dying young
Contemplation of a future impacting others, success, or early death
If I die tonight
Consideration of potential death tonight
Would you be alright
Concern about the impact of potential death on others
Would you be ok
Asking about the emotional state of others if the singer were to die
Or would it haunt you everyday
Questioning the lasting effect on someone if the singer passed away
If I die tonight
Reiteration of contemplating potential death tonight
I wonder who would cry and who would lie to you
Wondering about reactions and honesty of others
About a love that wasn't true
Reference to potential dishonesty in past relationships
We can't make it out alive
Acceptance of mortality and embracing life
So learn to love your time
Advice to cherish time and appreciate life's moments
Mountains, they don't move
Comparing life's challenges to immovable mountains
So I suggest you learn to climb
Encouragement to overcome life's obstacles
Days getting shorter and feet getting lighter
Noting the passing of time and personal resilience
I wouldn't be here if I wasn't a fighter
Attributing survival to a fighting spirit
I couldn't be me if I wasn't a lighter
Identity tied to being a 'lighter' (possibly metaphorical)
I'm lost until somebody needs to get higher
Feeling purposeful when helping others rise above
But maybe I'm valued and I just don't see it
Questioning personal value despite potential unrecognized worth
Cuz lately inside I feel very conceited
Conflicted feelings about self-worth
If you knew me before you'd never believe it
Contrasting past and present happiness
That somebody this happy was so mistreated
Perception of mistreatment despite current happiness
If I die tonight
Reiteration of potential death and its aftermath
Would everything be alright
Concern about the aftermath of death
Would I be ok or rot away eternally
Questioning personal well-being post-mortem
If I die tonight
Expressing efforts made in life
I want you to know I tried
Desire for acknowledgment of effort
Everyday to bring a smile to your perfect face
Intention to bring joy to someone special
If I die tonight
Reflection on potential legacy after death
Would I be remembered by
Questioning how one will be remembered
All my happy days or just a few of my mistakes
Contemplating between positive memories and mistakes in remembrance
With all of the days I was given on Earth
Hoping to have demonstrated someone's value
I hope that I showed you everything that you're worth
Expressing a desire to show appreciation
And if I fell short then I'm sorry my friend
Apology for potential shortcomings
But I'm not close to perfect so I won't pretend
Refusal to pretend perfection
Like everything's fine but we're not all ok
Admission of personal struggles and unveiling of truths
I tore down the veil and saw your second face
Observation of someone's concealed nature
Hiding inside something you cannot change
Recognition of an unchangeable aspect of someone's identity
It's the person you are so stop tryna be fake
Encouragement to be authentic
If I die tonight
Reiteration of concern about the aftermath of potential death
Would you be alright
Questioning the emotional state of others post-mortem
Would you be okay with all the time you had with me
Considering the impact of shared time
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