Before I Die
Embracing Shadows: The Vanity Plan's Reflection on Life's Bitter Realities
Lyrics
I look at the sky
The speaker is observing the sky.
And the daylight burns my eyes
The sunlight is causing discomfort to the speaker's eyes.
Now I'm guilty but your filthy
The speaker feels guilty, and someone else is described as filthy.
In the cold a lover dies
In a cold environment, a lover is experiencing death.
And I'm told that that's alright
It is mentioned that being told about the lover's death is deemed acceptable.
But I'm not willing to bite
The speaker is unwilling to accept or believe the situation.
No more lovers die tonight
The speaker expresses a desire for no more lovers to die tonight.
I'm awake somehow
The speaker is awake and can see satellites.
And i can see the satellites
Observation of satellites in the orange glow after the night.
In the orange glow of the dawn after the night
The speaker is determined to live life fully after this realization.
So i will live my life
The speaker commits to living life as if not wasting time.
Like I'm not killing time
The speaker emphasizes not wasting time and living with purpose.
Like im not killing time waiting to
The speaker expresses a sense of urgency while waiting for death.
die.
A direct statement about the speaker's contemplation of death.
So far
The speaker feels distant from things considered sacred or pure.
away from all that's holy
Expressing a sense of being far from holy elements.
My halo
The speaker's metaphorical halo (symbolizing purity) is black and lonely.
is feeling black and lonely
Describing a feeling of isolation and darkness in the speaker's life.
I will never live again
Declaring a reluctance to live again with the lost innocence of the past.
with innocence i had back then
Reflecting on the innocence the speaker once possessed.
So far
Repetition of the feeling of being far from holiness.
away from all that's holy
Reiteration of the sense of distance from sacred elements.
My halo
Repeating the metaphorical description of the lonely and black halo.
is feeling black and lonely
Restating the speaker's reluctance to live again with lost innocence.
I will never live again
Expressing a desire to preserve the innocence of the past.
with innocence i had back then
Empty line, no specific content.
So far
Continued sense of distance from sacred aspects.
away from all that's holy
Reiterating the metaphorical description of the lonely and black halo.
My halo
Reaffirming the speaker's reluctance to live again without innocence.
is feeling black and lonely
Expressing a commitment to holding onto the purity of the past.
I will never live again
Empty line, no specific content.
with innocence i had back then
Reiteration of the speaker's determination to preserve lost innocence.
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