Alone
Embracing Solitude: Vinnie Caruana's Poetic Journey Through Isolation
Lyrics
I took a walk through the parking lot of your housing development.
I strolled through the parking lot of your residential area.
Boarded up and black.
The houses are abandoned and in darkness.
So now I roam.
Now, I wander aimlessly.
It's not like I'm falling apart.
I'm not completely breaking down.
Don't you dare worry for me.
Don't be concerned about me.
Why on earth would you start now?
Why would you start worrying now?
A solitary flower pot on your front porch.
A lone flower pot sits on your doorstep.
It grows and grows and grows.
It grows continuously.
I've never felt quite so alone.
I've never felt so isolated.
Don't waste your sleep on me.
Don't lose sleep worrying about me.
I could never live with myself.
I could never live with the guilt.
I wouldn't know where to start.
I wouldn't know where to begin fixing things.
I know you hate how much I love you, but there's no other one.
You dislike how much I love you, but there's no one else.
I could never take how much you hated me, I vow to die alone.
I can't endure how much you despise me; I promise to face death alone.
I did some talking to God. We spoke of the flowers of forgiveness, until the sidewalk swallowed me whole.
I had a conversation with God about forgiveness and got swallowed by the sidewalk.
It's all uphill from here.
Things will improve from this point onward.
Day by precious day, I build up a tolerance to dirt in my mouth and concrete in my heart.
Every day, I develop a tolerance for difficulties in my life.
This is what it's like to be alone.
This is the experience of being alone.
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