Heartbeating City
Contemplating Life's Depths: "Heartbeating City" Reflection
Lyrics
I sing songs about loving my life
I express my joy for life through my songs.
But today I just don't have the energy
Today, I lack the energy to convey positivity.
I've thinking about leaving this life
I contemplate leaving my current existence.
'Cause these bruises inside
The internal pain I feel doesn't seem genuine.
Don't feel real to me
I question the authenticity of my emotional wounds.
How intriguing the dullness
I find interest in the dullness that engulfs the spirit.
That swallows your soul
This dullness weakens one's inner strength.
To the strength of a wet paper bag
Comparing strength to that of a wet paper bag.
How deceiving the notion
The idea that I can't control my life is deceptive.
I cannot control my own life
I acknowledge a lack of control over my own life.
So I'm choosing my death
Considering choosing death as an option.
But I'm still here, I'm still here
Despite the struggles, I am still alive.
I'm still here, I'm still here
Reiteration of being alive despite difficulties.
I'm still here, I'm still here
Emphasizing resilience and survival.
I'm still here, I'm still here
Reaffirmation of enduring challenges.
I've got numbers for friends I don't like
I have contact information for people I dislike.
And I've got numbers on most of my enemies
I also have information about most of my enemies.
I've got one thing to say
One thing to express before succumbing to intoxication.
Before I'm drunk again
Anticipation of the pain and burning sensation of alcohol.
Oh, it burns, oh it hurts and it burns
Describing the discomfort of alcohol consumption.
How intriguing the dullness
Fascination with the dullness that consumes one's spirit.
That swallows your soul
This dullness weakens the soul.
To the strength of a wet paper bag
Comparing strength to that of a wet paper bag.
How deceiving the notion
The deceptive nature of the idea that life is uncontrollable.
I cannot control my own life
Expressing a lack of control over one's life.
So I'm choosing my death
Considering the option of choosing death.
But I'm still here, I'm still here
Despite contemplation of death, I am still alive.
I'm still here, I'm still here
Reiteration of resilience and survival.
I'm still here, I'm still here
Emphasizing the ongoing presence despite challenges.
I'm still here, I'm still here
Final reaffirmation of enduring difficulties.
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