Medicate
Medicate My Mind: A Journey of Self-Healing and Reflection
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Is it evident, the way I always compromise my health
Expressing awareness of compromising personal health consistently.
I've been so near to thinking clear I don't care for no one else
Indifference to others due to a focus on personal clarity and well-being.
Im on top of it, and I can always medicate myself
Self-reliance on medication as a coping mechanism.
And I won't stop until I get caught, so I guess that this cements it
Determination to continue risky behavior until facing consequences.
My eyes feel brighter when im inside, your smile keeps sobering up
Feeling uplifted in the presence of someone, with their smile acting as a grounding force.
Ive been told im comatosed and life is what you make it
Acknowledgment of a numb state of being, with a philosophy that life is shaped by individual choices.
Vacant inside tear my heart apart and stitch up my eyes
Describing inner emptiness, the emotional pain, and a desire for healing.
Im my own worst enemy sometimes but Ill be fine if I sit and pass the time
Acknowledging personal flaws but finding solace in passing time.
So sick of feeling dumb and being blind
Frustration with feeling unintelligent and unaware.
And im losing my mind
Anxiety and a sense of mental deterioration.
And it never ends, ive been a burden now for far too long
Recognition of being a burden over an extended period.
15 years of thinking clear and brain dead at 21
Reflecting on a long period of clarity followed by a sudden decline in mental acuity.
But ill never quit, I know I always seem to bite my tongue
Determination to persist despite challenges and self-censorship.
All we do is talk it through but I never meant to vent it
Communication struggles, expressing thoughts but not intending to burden others.
My eyes feel brighter when im inside, your smile keeps sobering up
Reiteration of the positive impact of someone's presence on mood.
Ive been told im comatosed and life is what you make it
Repeating the idea of being numb, emphasizing individual control over life.
Vacant inside tear my heart apart and stitch up my eyes
Reiteration of inner emptiness and a desire for emotional healing.
Im my own worst enemy sometimes but Ill be fine if I sit and pass the time
Acknowledging personal struggles but finding comfort in time passing.
So sick of feeling dumb and being blind
Fed up with feeling unintelligent and lacking awareness.
If im losing my mind I might as well try
Acceptance of potential mental instability and a willingness to try to cope.
To have a long term better plan, and know that I can make my own decisions even if I cant
Expressing a commitment to long-term improvement and decision-making autonomy despite uncertainty.
Its been years since ive been thinking straight, pick me up and motivate
Longing for clarity and motivation after a prolonged period of confusion.
She said, its been a long time coming but you've fucked it up again
Acknowledging repeated mistakes and self-sabotage.
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