Big Blue Eyes
Fool's Game of Redemption: Wil Linder's Big Blue Eyes Revelations
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I make a tally on my body
I mark visible signs on my body
For the times I've hurt
For the occasions when I've caused pain
I know I'm lucky, given time
I acknowledge my fortune, with time, these wounds heal
They wash away
They eventually disappear
But the ones that remain, I know
Yet some scars persist, a reminder of my lowest moments
I've been at my worst
I've experienced my darkest times
I know they'll stay
These enduring scars serve as a testament to my struggles
I know I need it but I don't want it
Aware of the necessity but lacking desire
Does that make me insane?
Questioning my sanity due to this internal conflict
Or does it make me an addict or an idiot?
Contemplating whether it signifies addiction or foolishness
I know what my parents would say
Acknowledging parental disapproval
And I feel like a slave to myself
Feeling enslaved by my own actions
And I can't break away
Unable to break free from this internal struggle
And I hold onto that faint glimpse of hope
Clutching onto a faint glimmer of hope daily
With each passing day
This hope persists as time passes
It's a fool's game I play
Engaging in a futile and self-destructive game
And I can't hold it much longer
Feeling the inability to endure much longer
I can't stand up if I can't be stronger
Unable to stand tall without becoming stronger
All I need is a place where I can learn to love again
Desiring a place for rediscovering love
If that's in you, treat me the way I treated you
Willing to be treated in the way I have treated others
So what defines me? Is it you?
Reflecting on whether my identity is shaped by you or my actions
Or the footprints I leave behind?
Contemplating if I'm defined by our relationship or my impact on the world
Is it what we made or the things I've done?
Questioning whether my essence is in our shared experiences or my achievements
You know I'm searching for an answer
Expressing a quest for answers in a cold and isolating place
In a cold and lonely place
Recognizing the loneliness in this search
And I know that I'll break
Acknowledging an impending emotional breakdown
It's a matter of time
Anticipating that it's only a matter of time
And of what you'll do
Linked to what actions you'll take
But I'll still play your fool
Despite this, I'll continue playing the role of your fool
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