Worn
Worn: Navigating the Abyss of Self-Destruction
Lyrics
I make a tally on my body
Expressing a physical representation of emotional pain through self-inflicted tallies on the body.
For the times I've hurt
Acknowledging personal mistakes and the impact of actions that have caused harm to oneself or others.
I know I'm lucky, given time
Recognizing gratitude for the passage of time that helps heal wounds and alleviate the pain.
They wash away
Referencing the transient nature of some hurts that can be washed away over time.
But the ones that remain, I know
Acknowledging enduring emotional scars from past mistakes or difficult times.
I've been at my worst
Reflecting on personal experiences of being at one's lowest points in life.
I know they'll stay
Acknowledging that certain emotional scars and memories will persist despite efforts to move on.
I know I need it but I don't want it
Expressing a conflicted relationship with the need for something despite not wanting it.
Does that make me insane?
Raising questions about the sanity of desiring something one recognizes as potentially harmful.
Or does it make me an addict or an idiot?
Pondering whether the desire for something unwanted categorizes one as an addict or an unintelligent person.
I know what my parents would say
Acknowledging awareness of parental disapproval for certain choices or behaviors.
And I feel like a slave to myself
Describing a sense of being enslaved by one's own actions or choices.
And I can't break away
Expressing a feeling of being trapped and unable to break free from a negative cycle.
And I hold onto that faint glimpse of hope
Holding onto a faint hope or optimism despite difficult circumstances.
With each passing day
Linking the hopeful perspective to the passage of time, suggesting a daily struggle.
It's a fool's game I play
Characterizing the internal conflict as a game with inherently foolish choices.
And I can't hold it much longer
Expressing the difficulty of maintaining a challenging situation for much longer.
I can't stand up if I can't be stronger
Conveying the desire for strength to endure difficulties and challenges.
All I need is a place where I can learn to love again
Expressing a need for a supportive environment to rediscover the ability to love.
If that's in you, treat me the way I treated you
Suggesting a willingness to be treated in a way reminiscent of one's own past behavior.
So what defines me? Is it you?
Questioning the factors that define one's identity, whether it be external influences or personal actions.
Or the footprints I leave behind?
Contemplating the impact of personal actions (footprints) versus external influences on identity.
Is it what we made or the things I've done?
Pondering whether identity is shaped more by personal relationships or past actions.
You know I'm searching for an answer
Expressing a search for answers in a challenging and isolating environment.
In a cold and lonely place
Describing the challenging and lonely nature of the search for self-discovery and understanding.
And I know that I'll break
Anticipating a future point of emotional breakdown or vulnerability.
It's a matter of time
Recognizing the inevitability of facing challenges and difficulties over time.
And of what you'll do
Suggesting that the outcome depends on personal choices and actions in response to challenges.
But I'll still play your fool
Acknowledging a willingness to continue making choices that may be perceived as foolish in the eyes of others.
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