Lyrics
You're not what I had in mind
You don't match my expectations or desires.
Like I'm growing up in reverse
It feels like I'm regressing or going backward in maturity.
A little older this time
I've aged a bit since last time.
Still got the same curse
Still dealing with the same problems or challenges.
Telling myself that you can't
Convincing myself that you no longer have an emotional impact on me.
Move me like you used to do
I'm telling myself that your influence has diminished.
Telling myself what I want
Asserting my desires to myself.
But I'm coming back to you
Despite the assertion, I find myself drawn back to you.
Like eating junk food
Comparing the attraction to you with the pleasure of eating junk food.
Call me up, don't hang up like I should
Requesting a call, struggling to disconnect as I should.
Try to be good
Attempting to be morally upright.
Guess I don't know myself like I should
Realizing I may not understand myself well.
Ooh, la la la la la
Expressing with a vocalized melody.
Ooh, la la la la la
Repetition of the vocalized melody.
A dress, a jacket aside
Describing clothing items left behind.
Thinking oh my god what on earth
Reflecting on a surprising or unexpected situation.
Leave me a present to find
Finding a gift that symbolizes a learning experience.
In the shape of a learning curve
The gift takes the form of a lesson or personal growth.
Telling myself that I'm weak
Admitting vulnerability and self-perceived weakness.
That's why I do the things I do
Justifying my actions due to my perceived weakness.
I'd tell you if I could just speak
Expressing a desire to communicate but struggling.
Instead I'm crawling back to you
Returning to you despite difficulties.
Like eating junk food
Equating the return to you with the indulgence of junk food.
Call me up, don't hang up like I should
Asking for a call and struggling to disconnect, acknowledging it's the right thing to do.
Try to be good
Striving to behave morally.
Guess I don't know myself like I should
Realizing a lack of self-awareness.
Ooh, la la la la la
Repetition of a vocalized melody.
Ooh, la la la la la
Reiteration of the vocalized melody.
I guess I'm missing just a little self control
Admitting a deficit in self-control.
You say goodbye but don't really ever go
You claim to leave, but your presence lingers.
Leave a trace of sugar and the rest of me alone
Leaving behind a sweet memory but asking to be left alone.
I never know the difference, I'll never know
Uncertainty about distinguishing between experiences.
Like eating junk food
Reiterating the comparison of the relationship to junk food.
La la la la la
Repetition of a vocalized melody.
I try to be good
Continued effort to behave morally.
La la la la la
Reiteration of the vocalized melody.
I guess I'm missing just a little self control
Acknowledging a struggle with self-control.
You say goodbye but don't really ever go
Claiming to say goodbye but not truly leaving.
Leave a trace of sugar and the rest of me alone
Leaving a sweet memory but requesting solitude.
I never know the difference, I'll never know
Uncertainty in distinguishing between experiences, a perpetual confusion.
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