Who I'm Supposed To Be
Discovering Self in Life's Turmoil
Lyrics
Been writing a silly lil song
Repetition emphasizes the act of creating a song, possibly expressing a sense of routine or monotony.
Been writing a silly lil song
-Been writing a silly lil song
-Been smoking a spliff off a runt
Reference to smoking a particular type of rolled cannabis, possibly to cope with stress or escape.
I'm sipping a bottle of rum
Drinking rum, possibly as another form of coping or self-medication.
In my mind and my stomach I'm making it numb
Trying to numb emotional pain both in the mind and stomach, suggesting a deep internal struggle.
While these pussy boys acting so dumb
Critique of others behaving foolishly or irresponsibly.
And the pain of my past present tense
Reflecting on pain from the past that persists in the present.
All these notions been making it tense
Various thoughts or ideas contributing to a tense emotional state.
Been living my life in a mess
Admitting to living in a messy and depressed state.
Been living my life so depressed
-Been wondering who I'm supposed to be
Expressing uncertainty about personal identity and purpose.
Living my life like it was a monopoly
Metaphorically relating life to a game of Monopoly, with a desire for financial success.
If I roll it and the money it come to me
-Stupid to live this way in the eyes of my father
Feeling judged for living in a way disapproved by one's father.
Been looking up to my mother and my brothers and sisters are gone
Admiration for the mother while siblings face their challenges.
With all the pain tagged along
Carrying emotional pain alongside the memory of lost family members.
While I'm writing these silly lil songs
Continuing to create music despite personal struggles.
Been wondering
Repeatedly questioning personal identity and purpose.
Who I'm supposed to be
-I been wondering
-Who I'm supposed to be
-Been wondering
-Who I'm supposed to be
-Drowning my pain in a sorrow
Intensifying emotional pain drowned in sorrow, possibly indicating a darker emotional state.
I'm drowning my pain in a sorrow
-I'm loosing my mind and I wallow
Acknowledging a deteriorating mental state with the repetition of losing the mind and wallowing.
I'm loosing my mind and I wallow
-Empty bodies been living so hollow
Commentary on a society filled with empty, hollow individuals, witnessing its collapse.
Empty bodies been living so hollow
-Watch it crumble and fall while I follow
-Watch it crumble and fall while I follow
-Been smoking a spliff off a runt
Reiteration of coping mechanisms, smoking and drinking, while criticizing others for their behavior.
I'm sipping a bottle of rum
-In my stomach and mind an I'm making it numb
-While these pussy boys acting so dumb
-And the pain of my past present tense
Reiterating the impact of past pain on the present, living in a messy and depressed state.
All these notions been making it tense
-Been living my life in a mess
-Been living my life so depressed
-I finally know who I'm supposed to be
A shift in perspective, claiming to finally know who one is supposed to be, possibly suggesting a sense of self-discovery or acceptance.
I finally know who I'm supposed to be
-I finally know who I'm supposed to be
-I finally know who I'm supposed to be
Repetition emphasizing the newfound understanding of personal identity.
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