Lyrics
I'm just making amends
I am trying to make things right
While I'm making a mess
While I am creating chaos
I wish I loved you less
I wish I felt less love for you
But it's out of my hands
But the situation is beyond my control
It's out of my hands oh
The circumstances are beyond my control
I'm dying inside again
I am feeling a deep internal struggle again
I wanna hide away
I desire to retreat and be alone
Oh oh oh oh
Repetition for emphasis
Hide away
To find solace and seclusion
Oh
Expression of distress or realization
I wanna hide away
Repetition of the desire to hide away
Oh oh oh oh
Expression of distress or realization
Hide away
To find solace and seclusion
I still want the best for you
I still want the best outcomes for you
I don't know what to do
I am uncertain about the right course of action
I talk to myself, but I don't know who I'm talking to
I engage in self-talk, but it feels directionless
It's so sad I don't know me like you do
It saddens me that I don't understand myself as you do
And I never will
I never will understand myself fully
Probably never will
Expressing doubt about ever understanding oneself
I'm not perfect but this isn't how I'm supposed to feel
I acknowledge my imperfections, and this emotional state is unfamiliar
All those nights feeling lonely you were nowhere near
Recalling nights of loneliness when you were absent
Yeah, I'm selfish but I did this all without you here
Admitting selfishness in actions taken without your presence
Making amends
Reiteration of making amends
While I'm making a mess
While still creating chaos
I wish I loved you less
Expressing a desire for less intense love
But it's out of my hands
But the situation is beyond my control
It's out of my hands oh
The circumstances are beyond my control
I'm dying inside again
Experiencing internal distress once again
I wanna hide away
Desire to retreat and hide away
Oh oh oh oh
Repetition for emphasis
Hide away
To find solace and seclusion
Oh
Expression of distress or realization
I wanna hide away
Repetition of the desire to hide away
Oh oh oh oh
Expression of distress or realization
Hide away
To find solace and seclusion
I'm just making amends
Reiteration of making amends
While I'm making a mess
While still creating chaos
I wish I loved you less
Expressing a wish for less intense love
But it's out of my hands
But the situation is beyond my control
It's out of my hands oh
The circumstances are beyond my control
I'm dying inside again
Experiencing internal distress once again
I wanna hide away
Desire to retreat and hide away
Oh oh oh oh
Repetition for emphasis
Hide away
To find solace and seclusion
Oh
Expression of distress or realization
I wanna hide away
Repetition of the desire to hide away
Oh oh oh oh
Expression of distress or realization
Hide away
To find solace and seclusion
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