Lyrics
Yeah, make it real just like a notary
Expressing a desire for authenticity, comparing it to a notary's validation.
Paranoia got a hold of me
Feeling overwhelmed by paranoia and anxiety.
Poppa made me wanna hold the piece
Family influence causing a desire for self-protection and toughness.
I was ten when I was building walls
Reflecting on a young age when emotional barriers were constructed.
I was six when I was panicking
Recalling childhood moments of intense anxiety or fear.
I was fifteen thinking suicide
Revealing thoughts of suicide during adolescence.
Twenty-two, I'm thinking similar things
Continuing struggles with dark thoughts into adulthood.
Now I'm looking up from the south side baby
Currently observing life from a different perspective, potentially a more positive one.
As like I look around I see myself like Hades
Identifying with Hades, suggesting a connection to the underworld or hardship.
I was never prone to a life I hated
Rejecting a life of dissatisfaction or hatred.
Open up my heart, I don't feel so crazy
Opening up emotionally, seeking a sense of sanity.
Momma raised me to be pissed off
Upbringing involving encouragement of anger or frustration.
I just wanna pop then I lift off
Expressing a desire to escape through substance use.
Six below, I gotta lay down
Physical and emotional exhaustion, needing rest.
Y'all ain't trippin', no, I get it
Acknowledging others might not understand the struggles.
I been scared, I'm terrified
Admitting to fear and being terrified.
I just couldn't handle why
Confusion about the reasons for emotional distress.
Tell my baby, "Be my side"
Expressing a desire for companionship during tough times.
Always on thе edge when things don't go right
Feeling constantly on edge when things go wrong.
Things don't go right
Repetition emphasizing the persistence of things going wrong.
Things don't go right
-Things don't go right, yеah
-If I find nirvana, I'll jump in the water
Expressing a longing for a perfect or blissful state (nirvana).
Since I was a kid, I've been running from trauma
Revealing a history of trying to escape from traumatic experiences.
I'd do anything to feel right
Willing to do anything to find emotional peace or comfort.
Yet I'm running from my real life
Avoiding confronting the challenges of real life.
What's the balance? I don't know
Expressing uncertainty about finding balance in life.
Don't know how to manage but I'm loving it, uh
Enjoying the current state of confusion or chaos.
I ain't never trippin' off a covenant, uh
Not concerned about commitments or promises.
This'll never fill me it's a supplement, yeah
Recognizing that certain things won't bring true fulfillment.
Picking up the phone like, "When you coming home Mike?"
Longing for someone's return, possibly a metaphor for finding oneself.
I just want the old me don't think he's the grown type
Yearning for a previous, less complicated version of oneself.
I could never help me nothing on this world might
Expressing a difficulty in self-help and finding purpose.
Had to go above me, had to fine my home right?
Having to surpass personal limitations to find a true home or belonging.
Stuck in the middle like Coraline I had to go
Comparing personal struggles to the character Coraline's challenges.
Yeah, none of you tripping about it I get it I know
Acknowledging understanding from others, despite personal struggles.
I been scared, I'm terrified
Repeating the admission of fear and being terrified.
I just couldn't handle why
Reiterating the confusion about emotional distress.
Tell my baby, "Be my side"
Repeating the desire for companionship during tough times.
Always on the edge when things don't go right
Reiterating the constant state of being on edge when things go wrong.
Things don't go right
Emphasizing the persistent theme that things don't go right.
Things don't go right
-Things don't go right
-Things don't go right
-Things don't go right
-Things don't go right
-Since I was a kid I've been running from trauma
Reinforcing a lifelong struggle with running away from traumatic experiences.
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